So I feel like such a screw up... Scratch that, I am a screw up.
Everything I do goes to shit or is wrong, I always make bad decision which then causes shitty things to happen, and I can't have a single nice thing because I always ruin it. Like how I wrecked my first car only a month after getting it, or when I screwed up so many things at work in one day and was berated to the point that I was on the verge of tears. And I can't forget about my camera that I was so happy to get so that I can pursue my dream of being a photographer! Broke that too!
Has it really gotten to the point in my life where I feel like anything could happen to me and I wouldn't care? To the point of exhaustion and self-hatred?
I just don't know what to do anymore, and I have no one to talk to about this without being judged for getting upset over small things.
I know for a fact that I have really bad anxiety and have serious problems, but I don't have the money to see anyone about it. Not to mention everyone around me says that I'm just overreacting and that nothing is wrong with me, that I'm just being a child...
So what do I do? Act like I'm happy and that nothing is wrong, like my life is perfect and sane; normal...
Sorry to anyone who read this, if anyone did, for spewing my problems out but I think I might just use this to vent out my emotions and thoughts.
-KellytheVampire
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Road To Random
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