Lair, Lair (Male!Reader x Edward Cullen) COMPLETE

Chapter 19: Explanations

James sat on a log right outside the Cullen's home with Edward, the two sat beside one another and James felt Edward's hand holding his tightly.

"You know... if you told me 4 weeks ago that I'd fall in love with a stranger from out of town, a human no less... I would have laughed at you for calling me gay..."

"But now your actually gay and you've fallen head over feels in love with a guy who has done the same."

"You need to understand the choice James... you don't have long left. This life is only for very few people, people who are willing to KILL to stay alive. And the hunger James... the hunger for blood is so strong... especially with you... among other things. I never forgot the first human I killed... it was a complete accident... the plague had taken most of my family when Carlisle found me. When I was fully turned a poor nurse that had taken a liking to me came to check on me and I didn't even kill her... I stood up... straight after being deathly sick with a terminal illness and she fell back from shock... and hit her head straight on the corner of one of the tables and started bleeding out. I couldn't save her because the hunger had gotten so strong that I feed until she died from blood loss. I cried for 20 minutes until Carlisle found me and rushed me out of the hospital. Killing is enviable with our life. James.... your choice was taken away by.... Evil James??? I'm just gonna call him that from now on. He took your choice. Now you can either live with us as my mate, but become the monsters we are... or you can accept mortality and die knowing you did nothing wrong, innocent until the end and loved by all. I won't force your choice unless you are LITERALLY dying in my arms, so unless the shit hits the fan you have until the end of this month to decide..."

James sighed and kissed Edward on the cheek before responding to his long expose...

"Edward... killing is something we all do in our lives. HELL most countries have celebrations for jobs that are ONLY killing! I'm not the innocent guy you think I am. I've done my fair share of dark things... And as for you, I can't think of anything better to do with my life then live forever with the guy who is all but proposing to me after only knowing each other for 2 weeks..."

"Yeah I forgot Mates are basically automatic proposals. But we can have a real wedding if you like. I'm sure Bella and Charlie would love that... especially Bella..."

James flinched at the mention of his dad and Edward stiffened when he saw it, they still hadn't found out almost anything about where he is aside from James's dreams.

"We are close James I can feel it, Carlisle has his location almost narrowed down by tracking the asshole vamps that took him. We could ask the Blacks for help but I very highly doubt they would..."

"Jacobs Tribe...? What do you two have against each other so much..."

"Well for starters they actively mock us, they know what we are and they choose to mock creatures capable of ripping them to pieces... speaking of Jacob, what's up between you two? One moment I felt like you two were a thing the next your making out with me in my bed."

James shifted uncomfortably and bit his lip lightly at the thought of explaining his complicated relationship with Jacob...

"Jacob and I... were a thing, a few years ago. During the summer he and I kissed for the first time and we stayed up all night reliving the kiss, that and making out with intense passion... he and I were going perfectly for a while... until the last week we were here. Jacob invited Bella and I to a river by his Reserve and we got into it. Jacob wanted us to stay together while I knew we wouldn't work apart. I loved being around Jake but I couldn't do it long range. While we were arguing Bella started drowning and we didn't know it until Jake got so pissed he threw a rock and knocked Bella out by sheer accident. She went under and I immediately dove in while Jake was petrified from shock. I almost started drowning myself. In fact everything was really blurry then... all I remembered was waking up wet beside Bella on the shore and one of Jacobs older kin had jumped in to save us. Jacob of course was mortified with shame and I... told him that he should have never confessed to me. We went our separate ways and ever since I haven't been back. Bella's been once 2 years ago but since that day I haven't really TALKED to Jacob. Bella forgave him because it was a accident but I haven't forgiven him for not reacting and almost letting us both drown..."

Edward listened with interest and it was like something clicked in his mind while listening to him.

"So the perfect prodigy son of Billy is in fact... just like me. No, worse even. He wouldn't fight to keep you but yet I would die to. That's gonna make Alice's day. Don't get me wrong, I don't kill humans but he is a huge bitch, even by his tribes snide standards. The guy is petrified to get anywhere near water. I always wondered why he stuck to the shores at La Push and now I know why. He almost watched his lost lover and best friend die because of his inaction... how poetically screwed up."

James rolled his eyes at Edward's clear dislike of Jacob and sighed, resting his head on Edward's shoulder. The two sat there for nearly a hour watching the forest, the animals move through it, the slow but sure color change in the leaves... most were already dead. How poetic...

Soon he might just be the same.