I have finally seen the light,
I was so blind.
It got to me finally when I turned 28.
I needed to get my life back on track.
I lived in an abyss of pleasure with him.
I didn’t notice how the years had passed.
I knew he would never leave his lifestyle,
It was up to me.
It was that June afternoon, where I lounged on the couch on the back deck
I was sitting there seeing out into the sky.
I had been asked to be someone’s maid of honor.
Their wedding was almost coming soon.
I sat there thinking, would I ever marry.
Who would want me, with my history.
I didn’t know where all my marriage plans had gone from a long time ago.
I remember being the marriage type.
Now I am all but that,
I’ll be anything He wants me to be for him.
I have long ago, officially moved in with him.
He said it pleased him that I was at HIS house.
Everything here was HIS, not ours.
I wanted things that were mine, with someone else’s.
If HE couldn’t give it to me, shouldn’t I have looked else where by now?
I sat there dazed, until he came home.
He came up to me as noticed I was spaced out.
That day I laid all my cards down,
Told him how I felt, told him I couldn’t do anymore.
I told him I need something more, and I didn’t blame him for anything.
I told him that I loved him truly, but I had lost myself in the process.
I kissed him on the cheek before I left.
I went to his room and packed a bag with a few outfits and some of my material things.
I wrote a note and said I’d be back for the rest, that I needed space.
I didn’t look for him before I left, I couldn’t.
That night I slept in my mother’s guest bedroom, she didn’t ask me questions.
Two Days went by before I went back to retrieved my stuff.
I thought he wasn’t going to be there, but how wrong I was.
He was there, sitting on the couch, waiting.
It almost felt like he waited for me, I cant be sure though.
He didn’t even tell me anything, when he got up.
He strode to me and kissed me hard,
I couldn’t resist.
He’s my weakness.
When he finished he did something I never expected…
He got on one knee and asked me to be his truly.
I thought I died that day, but no it was just a big surprise.
After that day, we weren’t dom and sub
We were more, so much more.
He and me, we became an US, not a you and me anymore
I was his wife and he was my husband.
