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nine ✦ attempt

TRIGGER WARNING : ATTEMPTED SUICIDE ⚠️⚠️
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KIRSTIE:

After we got home, I waited for Scott to go to sleep and I snuck off to the bathroom. I knew there was a medicine cabinet in there. I walked in and opened the cabinet door, looking for anything that would work. I sighed and picked up a bottle with the most pills in it. Scott will be better off if I'm not here. I'm just a burden to him.. I didn't want to bring him into all this but look what happened... I can't do this anymore. I attempted to talk myself out of this. I started shaking & started getting nervous. After pacing back and forth, fighting with my mind, I decided to give in. That's the only way this pain will go away right....? I looked down at the pill bottle before opening it. I poured the pills into my hand and put them all in my mouth, not bothering to take them with water. What's the point anyways? A few moments passed before I started feeling dizzy. I lost my balance and fell onto the ground, hitting the side of the tub. I tried to catch my breath but it was useless. Everything started to get blurry and that's when I knew I was blacking out.

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SCOTT:

I woke up to a loud noise coming from upstairs. Rubbing my eyes, I got up and walked up the stairs. I didn't see Kirstie anywhere. I looked around and saw that the bathroom door was cracked. I walked up to it and knocked softly a few times. There was no answer. I tried again and the same result came back. Confused, I opened the door. I gasped at the sight. Kirstie, was on the ground with a pill bottle in her hand.

"No. No. No. No!" I ran up to her and picked her up. This can't be happening.. I picked up the pill bottle and realized they're all gone. My heart dropped. I had to call an ambulance. Running down the stairs, I ran to my room and got my phone. I dialed 911.

"911. What is your emergency?"

"My girlfriend! Sh-she.. I think she tried to kill herself!" I told the dispatcher while sobbing.

"Okay, Sir. What is your address? We will send an ambulance there as soon as possible."

I told her my address and ran back upstairs. I hung up the phone and sat by Kirstie to wait on the paramedics. I couldn't stop crying. I even attempted to wake her up but it didn't work. While holding her hand, I sobbed and blamed myself. What if she doesn't make it? I wouldn't be able to live with myself if she doesn't. A few minutes later, I heard my front door slam open and people started to come upstairs. A paramedic came in and put a breathing mask on her. After that, he gave her a shot in her arm. He said it would reverse the effects of the painkillers she took. Him and another man came in and carried her out on a gurney. Everything happened so fast. One minute I was on the bathroom floor and then the other, I was sitting in the waiting room of a hospital.

- time skip -

"Maldonado?" I jumped up and a Doctor told me to follow him. "Now, she is not awake yet. Luckily, the painkillers didn't have time to get into her system so, they won't affect her." He didn't say anything else. After walking me to her room, he left quietly.

I sighed and opened the door. As soon as I saw her, tears started running down my face. I don't understand why she would do this. I thought everything was okay. She would always say it was. I'm stupid to not ever ask if she was okay or if she wanted to talk about anything. All of this is probably my fault. I walked over and grabbed her hand.

"I'm so sorry, Angel. You don't deserve any of this. I'm sorry I didn't help.." I sniffled and bent down to kiss her forehead. I pulled up a chair and continued to hold her hand.

I sat there staring at her, trying to come up with reasons behind this. I couldn't think of anything. Sighing, I rubbed the back of her hand with my thumb. She is going to make it out of this. I know she will. She is extremely strong. I smiled sadly and started softly singing.

But now I know,
My heart is strong,
Where you belong
Is by my side.
So will you hold,
'Cause time is cold,
But in your soul
I'm standing by.

I started to cry after I stopped singing. I wish I could take all of the pain she has had to deal with away. She shouldn't be the one in this position.

-time skip-

Kirstie woke up in the middle of the night nurses started coming in, doing tests and checking things. I didn't get to say anything to Kirst before she went to sleep. I sighed and closed my eyes again. When the morning came, a nurse walked in. She said that Kirstie will be fine since she got treatment quickly and that she would not have any long term affects. She informed me that there was a good therapist for suicide attempt survivors. The nurse insisted that I took her to it. I nodded and told her thank you. She said that Kirstie could go home after she woke up. Kirstie woke up 30 minutes later.

She looked around the room and then she saw me. "Scott? I'm so sorry! I just.. I couldn't handle it anymore and I didn't know what else to do. I-i'm sorry.." She said talking fast while starting to cry. I shook my head and walked over to her.

"It's not your fault, Angel. I understand. Everything is going to be okay. You're safe now..I promise." I started to tear up. I held her hand as she cried. I looked down at her and cleared my throat. "The nurse said there was a good therapist that you should go to. Only if you want to. I won't force you to go." She nodded and didn't respond.

I informed her that we could leave after she got dressed. I went back home last night and got her clothes. She smiled sadly and picked up the clothes. After she got changed, we got all of her stuff and walked out. She signed out and we went to the car. After we got home, I went upstairs and cleaned out my medicine cabinet and put everything I didn't need in the trash. The nurse said if I needed Tylenol or things like that, to keep it in small quantities in case Kirstie wanted to attempt again. After I was done, I walked back downstairs to see Kirstie on the couch crying. I walked over and sat down beside her. I pulled her onto my lap as she continued to cry.

"It's okay. You cry. I'll hold you." I said as I rubbed her back. She looked up at me and wrapped her ams around my neck, still crying. I rocked back and forth, starting to sing softly.

And now we know,
Our hearts are strong,
Where we belong
Is side by side.
And so we'll hold
Each other close,
And in our souls
We're standing by.

I noticed her breathing had slowed down. I looked at her and saw that she was asleep. I can't tell you how many times she has cried herself to sleep. I'm not complaining though. I will always be there to help.

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another sad chapter. gonna be a bigggg time jump in the next chapter bc im lazy
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