Al's P.O.V during the kidnapping scene (Divergent)

When Guilt Sinks In (Part 1)

I walk along a vast corridor, I hope to get lost. I sink to the ground, the cold seeps into my bones, I'm horrible how could I have done this?

I can't believe my self, why have I done this? I hate myself! I can't believe I have done this, I hurt Tris, I'm a cowered.

I don't deserve to be in dauntless, I need to do something, talk to Tris, have I hurt her?........

I wake up slumped against the cold wall, where am I? The memories of last night flood into my mind, oh God I hate myself.

I need to get out of here, I stand up, I start walking along the hallways.

I pass apartments, One says Four. The door is slightly open and I hear voices.

I push it open a bit, enough so I can hear what the people are saying.

"He wanted you to be the small, quiet girl from abnegation, he hurt you because your strength made him feel weak. No other reason." says a deep voice, Four. "The others won't be as jealous if you showed some vulnerability, even if it wasn't real." Four says softly.

"You think I have to pretend to be vulnerable?" Says a higher voice, Tris.

"Yes, I do." Says Four.

I can't take it anymore, I start walking away, my feet slapping off the concrete ground. I break into a run. I reach the dormitory, everyone is still asleep

When I wake Christina and Will are standing above me, I groan.

"Wake up, rise and shine!" cheers Christina, how can she be so energetic in the morning?

"Oh just piss off!" The words come out of my mouth before I notice what I say.

"What are you talking about, Al?" Will says looking sad. But Will and Christina walk away before I can try and apologize.

I can't face training today, so I stay in the dorm. I lay on my bed and before I know it I start crying. At some point I drift off to a dreamless sleep.

I hear shouts coming from outside, I stand up and straighten my clothes, ugh I'm still wearing the same clothes as yesterday.

Tris walks into the room, as soon as she sees me she stands a little behind Will. I feel awful.

"Tris, can I talk to you?" I say, I know my voice is breaking.

"Are you kidding, you don't ever come near her again." Will says like a big brother.

"I won't want to hurt you. I never did..." I cover my face in my hands. "I just want to say that I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I don't ...I don't know what's wrong with me, I ... please forgive me, please?" I pleaded. Tears well up in my eyes. I reach for her shoulder.

"Stay away from me, never come near me again." Tris says coldly.

I look up, our eyes met, her eyes are cold.

"If you do, I swear to God, I will kill you. You coward." Tris spits.