Forever, Amore

31.

Monroe's P.O.V

He said nothing. His face was even emotionless. After I told him, he stiffened up and said fucking nothing! In fact, we drove for hours all the way home in silence.

As the car came to a stop outside the house, I got out the car and slammed the door behind me feeling furious. I saw Noah and Kat stood by the doors as their eyes turned to me. Noah instantly looked sad at the sight of me. "Wait.." Leo spoke as he got out the car, walking behind me.

I turned quickly to face him. "Oh, so you can still fucking talk then!!" I yelled at him, making him stop. Before he could say anything else I butted in. "We've spent seven fucking hours in a car. Seven hours for you to say something, ANYTHING!! But no! Do you have any idea how you've made me feel!? Just leave me the fuck alone Leo!!" I yelled as tears flooded down my face.

I stormed past Noah and Kat and everyone else who were stood watching and headed straight up to my room, locking the door. Sliding down it, i sat there sobbing.

Leo's P.O.V

Noah came over to me looking just as mad as Monroe was. "What the fuck bro!?" He hissed, shoving me. I glared at him as it clicked. As if he read my thoughts, Noah spoke again. "Yes I do know before you ask! That's where we were this morning. And for the record she wasn't going to tell you because she was afraid of this reaction! But no, I convinced her she'd be fine, that you wouldn't freak out. Now she's probably in her room crying all alone because you were a jackass!!"

Noah stormed off leaving me stood there alone. I knew he was right. I knew I reacted horribly. Leaving our bags outside, I ran up to Monroe's room and heard her crying on the other side of the locked door. Sighing, I sat down with my back against her bedroom door.

"I know you can hear me, and I know you won't talk to me so I'm going to talk, Okay?" I said softly. "I'm sorry. I was a jerk. Trust me, I hate myself more than you do right now. I never want to hurt you and it's killing me knowing how you're crying because of me. When you told me you were pregnant, I was shocked. But that's not why I kept quiet. I was terrified. I'm not scared of having children. In fact, I want nothing more than to start a family with you, the woman I love. But I'm scared I won't be able to keep you both safe. You've been dragged into this messed up life because of me and I know you tell me it's not my fault, deep down I know it is. You've got scars on your body from attack's. I'm just scared that the wrong people will find out about the baby, OUR baby, and I won't be able to keep you both safe.."

I sat there for a moment before I heard the door unlock. Opening it, I saw Monroe perched down on the end of the bed with puffy eyes from crying. Instantly I ran over to her and pulled her into me as she cried more. "I thought you were mad at me. They you didn't want this baby. I don't blame you if you don't. But I want it, Leo. I want to keep this baby. If that means you leave me then so be it. But I don't want to lose either of you. Don't make me choose..please." She begged as I kissed her head.

"I'm not going anywhere, amore. And neither is our baby, ok? I promise you I'll do everything in my power to keep you both safe. I'll die before anyone hurts you again." I assured her as she gave me a soft kiss. "I love you Leo.." she said as I smiled at her. "I love you too, doll."

We just sat there for what felt like hours in each other's arms, talking about the baby and got excited we were. Turns out she'd not been feeling well for the past week but hid it from me.

I insisted that we got our doctor to run some tests tomorrow to check the baby is healthy and find out how far along she is. I think she was worrying more because she'd been out on missions potentially carrying this baby. Although that won't be a problem anymore because I told myself she's not going on anymore until the baby is born. There's no way anyone is taking this child from us.

We both agreed also that we wouldn't share the news with many people, as that was the safest way to do it. I don't even think I'd tell the whole mafia. The more people that knew, the higher the risks.

And I didn't want anyone targeting my child or my love.