We Could Be More

Until we fall apart

Elise PoV:
After that night Natasha and i started going out a lot.
We kissed, we danced... i still remember our very first time having an intimate night...
It all was just perfect and it fit together.

I had a lot of stress cause of my moving. At some point i thought i should even stop but i wont let my dreams down. Its just... hard?

In two weeks, i'd be flying over To LA.
I am happy i really am i just don't know what to do without Natasha.
I guess i was pretty broken... and if she's gone then i'll be lost...
It will get harder and harder to hide the pain.

But LA also means new opportunities, new people a new life for a few months... a break from everything to find myself again.

I guess i'll just go for a run and try to think about other stuff.

Natasha PoV:
I feel like shit. I really do. Elise will be gone soon and i don't really know how i should feel about that.
I'll loose her and i'm not overreacting
Have you seen her?
Everyone wants to date her... she'll probably forget about me and just be with better people

But it would be okay... i want her to be happy. If she is in LA then i am happy too... sort of
I knew it would be so hard... i just never knew it would be THAT painful.

Okay enough! I have to distract myself.
I got a piece of paper and a pen and all of a sudden i started to write about Elise.
I know i know thats a good way to distract myself gosh

I wrote a letter:
Dear Elise
We know each other now for a long time.
At first we were just friends. I really loved to be with you. You were always so good at acting and it was fun rehearsing with you.
After a few months we basically knew everything about each other.
I know that you love books, the nature, hiking, climbing... your brother...  you want to cut your hair short again...
One thing i never knew was that you wanted to move to LA... 4.000 KM away from me.
So now i know that you'll probably be really happy there. Thats what i want at the end of the day...

The last few weeks have been a blast to me...
being with you, cuddled up...
I will miss your hugs. Your kisses, your touch, your voice, the way you jump on me every morning so i can stand up...
i will miss you and i dont want to loose you...

So i'm asking you, Elise Janea Bauman...

Can you promise me that i can be the only one who gets lost into your eyes, the only one who can taste your lips, can feel your touch, your hair... your cuddles.
That i will be the only one who will hear the sweet words of yours...?
Until we fall apart and find someone else?

Cause i promise you all of that...
I love you Elise
I don't think that i'll give this to you but i love you so so much...

A/N
Gosh i am deep rn sorrryyy