"I'm done. I'm just so done with everything."
You were shaking nervously, trying to focus on the work you had. It was hard to achieve, though. At this point you knew the things you had to do were important, but the weight of situation unnerved you, ironically pulling you away from getting them done. It's like your whole existence focused around thinking just how much you should do it, so much you weren't able to focus on the act.
Responsibility was something you'd love to push off yourself, and you didn't see any good outcomes at this point. Yet, you wanted to do your best. You wanted to show that you can.
"I don't understand why you, humans, like to torture yourselves so much" the man sitting behind you announced carelessly, lazily stretching himself on the sofa.
"Some of us don't live with a free food dispenser. We have to earn money to buy food, you know" you muttered.
A few more seconds of silence passed before you put the pen down suddenly and turned around to face him.
"Actually, why don't you have a job? You should at least pay half of the rent for living here. And buy me food, too, you're getting me anemic" you exclaimed.
It was only reasonable for you to say, you thought. Yoongi had been living with you for the past two months, feeding off you and usually not offering much in return. It wasn't a peaceful relationship at first, but with time, you found yourself accepting the other's presence. Because even despite him being a parasite in its purest form, you enjoyed his lazy personality, and it surely gave you some sort of comfort to not be alone in your apartment at all times.
He even did some small tasks you asked him to, like grocery shopping or doing the dishes. Sometimes, he cooked for you. He didn't say anything while doing these things and you supposed it's because he, also, saw himself as a parasite. But the two of you lived in some sort of harmony, and you didn't expect much more.
"Mm... Bothersome" Yoongi muttered, running his hand through his hair. "I could find a cheaper flat, if you want" he offered instead.
"I like my flat very much, thank you" you huffed. It's not like you expected a different response in the first place, really.
"Seriously though, why won't you take a break? You don't look like you can do much more now anyway, you know" he noticed with a mocking smile on his face, staring at the dark circles under your eyes from all these sleepless nights you experienced lately.
You sighed and stood up, turning to him.
"I can't rest. I keep thinking. I'm helpless" you whined, just falling onto the sofa next to him and burying your face in the backrest. "I'm just so, so done with everything."
"If you really were done, you wouldn't be thinking of this shit" Yoongi noticed, moving slightly to the side so that you could sit on the sofa comfortably.
"Kill me, just kill me" you whimpered pathetically.
"Mm, not yet."
"What do you mean not yet." You glared at him, making him chuckle innocently.
"I mean what I said. Now come on, since you're already here you can as well take a nap" he tempted, throwing some blanket at you. You caught it and wrapped yourself with it. "Wanna sleep with me?" His voice was low, husky; you knew he usually used this tone when he wanted you to relax. Before, he would talk to you while drinking your blood, to help you get through the unpleasant feeling, and it always worked. So right now, you automatically found yourself rely on him. The man put hand on your shoulder and brought you down, onto his chest.
"Wake me up in an hour" you mumbled sleepily into his shirt.
"Mm, sure." The lie was evident, both of you knew he'd fall asleep for long hours too and not even care about ever waking you up, yet you forced your brain to believe it.
But you thought that an hour wouldn't change anything, you'd wake up and get back to work. You believed in that so much that you finally felt yourself get the intrusive thoughts off your mind.
His hand stroked your hair, and his voice was the last thing you heard before the dream swallowed you whole.
"You may take pride in extending your limits now, but I promise you, soon these limits won't exist for you anymore."
