Eye to eye, heart to heart

Chapter 1: The First Night

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The car ride home was silent, we didn't need words. My right hand was tightly gripped around his left, I would have held both but he needed a free hand to steer. I broke the silence with a fulfilled 'I'm happy' sigh. Aaron took his eyes off the road for a second to look at me with a loving smile that had suddenly crept onto his face . The SUV made the drive home smooth so I sunk back into my seat, stretched out my legs, gave a slight yawn and tilted my head towards him, totally and utterly happy.

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We hadn't taken the jet because the case we were investigating was in Virginia. The rest of the team were in the other two cars, which left Hotch and I alone for roughly the next 30 minutes. He spoke suddenly in that low, soft tone that could put anyone's mind at ease,

" listen JJ we may have to keep this quiet at work for now, don't get me wrong I want... us but if Strauss-"

" I know," I softly interrupted. He pulled my hand towards him and kissed it softly, feeling his lips pressed against my skin was like heaven. That car trip was the fastest 30 minutes of my life but I enjoyed every second.

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We were very discrete while heading into the BAU. Morgan and Rossi were already there, Morgan with his arm around Garcia asking her about her day and Rossi sitting at his desk. Hotch walked straight past them and up the stairs to his office, me trying not to make it obvious that I was staring at him with love heart eyes. Prentiss and Reid walked in a minute or two after us and sat at their desks. I casually said goodnight to everyone, walked up to Hotch's office and said a quick goodnight to him too. He took his eyes off his paperwork to look up, muttered, "goodnight" and went back to his paperwork. I walked out the door waiting until I was out of the rest of the teams line of sight to put a huge grin on my face. Walked to my car, got in and pulled out a set of keys that were buried at the bottom of my pocket, they were the keys to Aaron Hotchner's apartment! I let out a little excited squeal and drove to his place.

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I slowly slid the key into the keyhole and jiggled it around until it turned and let me push the door open. Jack was at a sleepover and spending the whole next day there too, which was coincidentally our day off. I locked the door behind me, sat the keys on the coffee table and sat on his couch waiting for him to knock on the door. I picked up the TV remote and flicked through the channels aimlessly until I got to the news and decided to leave it there. My eyelids were starting to feel heavy, I wasn't tired, my eyes were. There was a knock at the door and my eyes weren't heavy any more, they were wide open. My whole face was calm and happy, I ran to the door and looked through the peephole, it was Aaron. I swung the door open and Aaron put his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him and kissed me passionately while using his foot to close the door. He pulled his lips off mine smiling, the most genuine smile I have ever seen on his face,

"Hey," he whispered, biting his lip.

"Hi," I said looking into his eyes. He held my face in his big hands continuing to kiss me. I pulled his suit jacket off his shoulders and let it land in a crumpled heap on the floor. He pulled off his tie and started untucking his shirt by pulling it loose from his pants. I let him take off my blazer and he started kissing my neck and gently tugging my earlobe with his teeth. I hadn't realised that I still had my heels on so I kicked them off and pulled him even closer by his collar. I un buttoned the top button of his light blue, work shirt and started to move down to the next button but he cupped his hands around mine and pried my fingers off of his shirt. Stepping back he sighed and started massaging the bridge of his nose with his thumb and index finger.

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" I'm sorry" I said with true worry. I stayed a few feet away, trying to give him his space. He turned to face me, his eyes sad.

" It's not you," he whispered. " I just- I have... scars." He said turning back away as if he were embarrassed. It suddenly hit me like a wave, Foyett. I felt so stupid. I walked up behind him and started massaging his shoulders, feeling his muscles relax in my hands.

" It doesn't matter to me," I said in a serious tone. " Plus, scars are sexy" I said with a slight smile, he turned with a smile starting to form on his face, which made me happy again. I gave him a little kiss and un buttoned his shirt. I pulled it off his shoulders and down his arms seeing the knife wounds all over his torso. He looked away as I examined them, I grabbed his chin making him look at me and kissed him again gently skimming my fingers over his scars. I took his hand and walked him into his bedroom, I wanted him to know that those scars didn't change my feelings about him one bit.

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The sun streaming through the nooks and crannies of the curtains woke me. I could feel Aaron's arm under my neck, it felt like home. He was already awake smiling at me, his finger running up and down my arm. I rolled over onto my stomach so I was almost on top of him.

"Mmmmm morning" I said softly, still half asleep. He pulled me towards him and pressed his lips against mine.

" Morning," he said looking proud of himself. I tried not to blush at how amazing that kiss was. He slid out from underneath me and walked into the kitchen, yelling out an offer for breakfast. I accepted while walking into the bathroom. This was perfect but it still felt slightly odd seeing my serious, strict, workaholic boss all lovey and smiley and... naked, a good odd though. I walked into the kitchen and noticed that Aaron had chucked a shirt and some boxers on,meanwhile I was only wearing his shirt. He looked me up and down with a cheeky grin.

"Nice look," he said with a soft laugh. I just laughed back and said the same to him. We ate the egg and bacon sandwiches that he made, quite well I might add then we got the call. Our phones both rang out at the same time and our smiles both disappeared.

" Every damn day off" I half yelled, kissed him on the cheek and ran to my phone also handing him his. After our calls had both ended I ran into the bathroom with my bag to put my make up on. Hotch yelled from the bedroom,

" hey, I need to be in there too." I opened the bathroom door and let him in next to me, he kissed on the forehead then started to brush his teeth.

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We headed out the door together, his hand holding mine all the way to the cars. He looked sad when we had get in separate cars. I gently pushed him up against his car and gave him one last passion-filled kiss before we had to act professional. When I finally pulled away I saw his surprised facial expression and giggled.

" see you at work agent Hotchner" I said sarcastically. His smile turned bright again as he got in his car, it was going to be hard to spend time with him and not act affectionate. Oh well at least I was spending time with him.