2 Months Later
Present
Taylor's pov
"Aiden come here hold Bubba's hand"I said with Carly in my arms and Jackson in my other arms.Aiden gripped my finger and I got a carter,I put Jackson on one side and Carly on the other."Hold Bubba's hand"I said as I was pushing my cart in BJ's.
It was a huge store and I was worried about Aiden running off since he's in that phase now.I picked him up and put him in the front of the cart.I was throwing my birthday party since Shawn begged me to have a party,he was at Island records working on an album.
I went to get some cups,and something to put over my nice tables.I got both of those things and than went to get a cake.I went by the woman."Hi"I said."I need a cake by tonight and I was thinking I can just get one of those,but can you put 'Happy Birthday Taylor'"I asked.
"Sure,It'll be finished in ten minutes"The man said."Okay"I said.Tyler's been good he's doing great with the baby and everything and not being on drugs.
I heard Cameron's bringing wine,I haven't been around alcohol since,I was three months pregnant with Carly.I was an idiot,I never told anyone this,but during my pregnancy,I drank a bottle of wine,I was three months and I didn't think it would hurt her.When I got into the car crash and when I delivered Carly and they told me she had Autism,I knew it was my fault,but I wouldn't tell anyone,not even Shawn.
Being an alcoholic for a bit in my life is horrifying,because I didn't think I would ever want to be an alcoholic.But here I am pushing past drinking,I will drink lightly now,but Shawn has to watch me.
I got what I needed and left.
5 years ago.
"Hi 1 year old Aiden"Jack J said."Hey"I said smiling.We were at another magcon event and Jack,Jack,Sam,Dillon,Willie,Chase and Matthew were hiding.Mahogany,Jacob,and Aaron were fighting.
I held Aiden in my arms."He's getting the balls"I said happy for Aaron.
"Aaron I don't know why your so mad about Jacob and I dating"I heard Mahogany say in the hallway of the hotel."Because Mahogany I like you"Aaron said."Aaron if you want to date her,your a little late,She's mine"Jacob said."You dickhead"Aaron started off and Chase covered Aiden's ears.
"You fucking dickhead,she doesn't belong to anyone,you show off like you know her,but you don't.What's her favorite Food Huh?"Aaron said."Pizza"Jacob said."Wrong,it's not exactly a food,it's chocolate milk,I know Mahogany inside and out,I would die without her,She's different,she has these freckles that are just perfect,her eyes are these beautiful brown color,she is perfect and everyone and no man in the world deserves"Aaron said and Mahogany looked at Jacob then Aaron.
She went towards Aaron and kissed him."Jacob I'm so sorry,but maybe I'm not the girl for you"Mahogany said and Jacob nodded.
"Damn Aaron got's the balls"Jack J said and finally Chase removed his hands from Aiden's ears."He's going to start repeating it"I said."Repeat"Aiden said."Yes repeat"I said."REPEAT"He said enjoying that word now.
"Oh well"Jack J said meaning Aiden repeating things."Ow I should call Shawn"I said trying to hold Aiden and dial the phone."Here"Sammy said taking Aiden from me."Cutest baby alive"Sammy said."HEY GREYSON IS"Aaron yelled in the room
"MY SON IS"I said calling Shawn."Hey"I said."Hey"Shawn said."Whatcha you doin'"I said."Making music,you"Shawn said."Aaron got up the courage to tell Mahogany the truth"I said."Damn"Shawn said.
"That's what Jack said"I said."Which Jack"Shawn said."Gilinsky"I said making a flirty face."Really?"Shawn questioned not believing me."No Johnson"I said.
"Ooh interesting"Shawn said and I heard Aiden get cranky."I got to go"I said."Put Aiden on the phone"Shawn said and I put it to Aiden's ear."Say hi to Dada"I said."Dada"Aiden greeted."Hi Aiden,what's up"Shawn said."Fight"Aiden said."Ah cool buddy,Daddy's go to go,I love you"Shawn said on speaker phone now."Love"Aiden said meaning I love you too.
"Come here Aiden"I said picking him up."What are you doing"Dillon said."Changing him"I said."Oh"Dillon said."Want to do it for me"I said as Aiden squirmed."NO"He shouted."Yes"I said tickling him."Dada"Aiden said.
"Yeah that was Dada"I said.
Present.
"Tyler are you okay"I yelled from the basement."Yeah fine,just got sick"He yelled."Okay"I said getting my house in order."Daddy"Aiden said to Shawn."What bugs"Shawn said picking him up."Is Uncle Cameron and Aunt Alyssa coming"Aiden said getting cookies."Oh no"Shawn said taking the cookie away from him."Tonight"He said and Aiden went to his room.
"Taylor"Shawn said."Yes"I replied."We still need a wedding date"Shawn said."I told you,I'm thinking about,maybe in ten years"I said."How about December 21st this year"Shawn promised me."But-That's our old wedding date"I said."Yeah,but at least I won't have to waste brain cells to remember it"Shawn said."Okay December 21st,this year"I got a date set.
"Same suits?"Shawn questioned."What suits,funeral suits"I said meaning Clayton's funeral we went to about 2 weeks after he died.We had a closed coffin,and because he was rotting away I guess,and it only lasted 10 minutes,because the smell of death was bad,but then we had a funeral service for him two weeks before the wedding at City Hall.
No one noticed how much Shawn worked,he was going to MMVA's,VMA'S,reason 5,000 why I started drinking again that year.I know that being an alcoholic is something serious,but I try so hard for my family and everything seems to fall apart,alcohol's there for me...but so is Shawn.
I don't know where I would be without him.I love my husband,and you know if you want to know something we are complete opposites,getting pregnant only brought us together.
I know being an alcoholic is strange,I mean I guess with a hot boyfriend,wonderful children,supportive family,and amazing friends is all nice,but people see the outside.
On the inside,I have a sweet boyfriend,a child whose dead,a mother who hardly talks to me,and friends who are struggling to stick together because of so much shit.
Tyler is a great boy,he has all the problems I have only these problems happened after I got pregnant.If I could go back and change having sex with Shawn...truthfully,I would.
~Oh my god I am a fucking bitch,this was so hard to right,I know my story is getting complicated,but the last chapter's coming up and then....BOOK 2.
For some more surprises I will be writing a Sammy and Dillon mpreg,and possibly a Carter and Matthew Mpreg.I hope you enjoy
