Kept in Dark

I was kidnapped

There is a knock at the door, I open it and Giselle marches inside holding Calvin's hand. I am too ashamed to look at him. 

"Listen, Cassidy he needs to know everything. You can't just ignore like you always do." 
"But Gis-" She put her hands up front gesturing me to stop.
"No. Tell him everything. Now." 

She stares at me for a second and leaves, leaving the two of us behind. After a moment of complete silence and staring down at the floor, Calvin speaks up. 

"It's okay if you don't want to share certain things. I'm okay with that," I look up at him and realize how scared he is, "I'm sorry, alright? Just don't leave me or something..I promise not to come close to you. Ever."

I won't lie, this tone terrifies me to a whole new level. 

"No. Don't..I mean don't be sorry. I-I am sorry. I really didn't know how it all happened." 

He nods and leaves. I know how angry he is, yet he won't show it. 

It is about one in the morning when we reached home. Although my eyelids are heavy and my body is pleading for sleep, my mind keeps on pondering about Calvin. I at least owe him an explanation. I decide to call him and on the third ring, he answers. 

"Hmm?"
"What hm? Say hi."
"Okay hi. What do you want?" He sounds so annoyed. 
"I can't sleep so meet me." 
"Now? Cassidy, it's almost two."
"Yeah, just come home. We'll talk" 

He remains silent for a minute and then hangs up with an 'okay'. I wait outside our apartment for at least fifteen minutes before he shows up. I offer him some coffee and we sit down on the floor, next to the metal gate. He seems too hesitant. 

Quietly, we sip our coffee. This silence between us is like an agony; his silence is adding to my anxiety. 

"Why did you call me here?" He asks.
"To talk?" I reply casually, while sipping my coffee.
"Oh right, you have been talking nonstop, I forgot." 

He stands up and starts to walk.

"Calvin wait- I have something," he turns back to look at me, "to tell you.." 
His eyes become more tensed. 

"Remember at Dr. Garcia's home on our first meet I told you I was being bullied? Which is why I was seeing your aunt?"

Dr. Garcia is Calvin's aunt and my psychiatrist, who has been treating me for the last three years. 

He nods. I stare at him for a while, speculating his movements and then gesture him to sit beside me. 

"Go on." His voice has never been this low. 
"I lied," my lips tremble while speaking, "I was never bullied, I was kidnapped."

With this, my heart starts beating twice the normal pace. He turns to face me. He looks as if he would faint; jaws dropped, and mouth wide opened. 

"Cassidy, you-"

"Don't speak, just listen.. It was my fifteenth birthday and I had just returned from St.Williamson, finishing high school. So, we decided to go shopping and have lunch. There was everyone except Giselle. It was about six in the evening when we had finished shopping and went to a nearby cafe to have something. The cafe was extremely packed that we couldn't even hear our own voices. Anyways, so I told my mom that I was going to the parking lot to bring my phone from the car. As soon as I grabbed my phone and shut the door, there were three men standing few steps away from me."

"And they kidnapped you?" He asks and I shake my head yes.
"Why didn't you tell me this earlier-" 

"I panicked. I had no idea of what I was supposed to do. One of them came closer and thrust his hands onto my mouth and tied me and blindfolded me. They forced me to get inside their car and took me somewhere I still don't know. I was  kept in a room, small and dark, with hands and legs tied. It was suffocating. Even now when I think of it, I get panic attacks and feel like dying." 

"Why didn't you tell me this earlier?" He snaps.
"Wait, there's more," I see him tightening his fist, "I am not a virgin." 

I breathe out before turning to face him. Calvin turns his face front, averting my gaze. This is why I preferred keeping it a secret. He stands up and so do I. 

"It's not like I willingly slept with someone..It was a few days after I got kidnapped and-"
"And they raped you, isn't it?" 
"Right." 

Once again, there's silence in between us.