The Past Is In The Past

Numbness

What happened?

Somethings wrong.

A numbness fills my body

What use to be pain

What use to be sadness

What use to be anger

Is now

NOTHING...

I cant cry

I cant have feelings

I cant be angry!

All I have is this fake smile

That im not even sure

can be real again

Did I run out of tears?

Did I hit a nerve?

What did I do wrong?

My stupid jokes

And my bestfriends

Are my high...

Only when im with them

Can i feel a slight tingle

In my heart

Is it weird that I miss crying?

Or being angry at God knows What?

Is this a blessing or a curse?

So many questions

That only i know the answer to

I just dont know what it is yet

I hope this doesnt last Long

But then again,

Hope never really did get me very far

Should i Pray?

Should I ask God to make me a real girl again?

Or should I just fight threw this...

I dont know what to call it...

NOTHINGNESS