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Ashton's POV
"Shit" he mumbled.
I looked up, and I liked what is saw.
Woah woah.
No I didn't. I can't.
He said something else, but I was to busy gazing in his light blue eyes.
"Well, sorry again" he said walking.
I promised myself never to crack, so I can't say anything. Ignore the guy that just talked to you.
Wait! He talked to me? That's strange, does he not know.
I'm Ashton Irwin. Gay, outcast?
Oh well.
I went to my next class hoping it would end soon so I could go to music.
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It didn't end soon, it was the longest 45 minutes of my life. It was torture.
But hey! Now its music.
I went in the music room and sat in my usual seat. Back corner where nobody goes.
The teacher walked in and said what we need to do and all that.
She gave us the papers telling me to drum. And everyone. Else to do everything else.
I didnt like being the drummer all the time, too much attention. What am i saying, nobody pays ANY attention to me. Even when they didn't know I was gay.
Having quite fun in music playing drums for that time. It was time to go.
I waited in the bathroom for everyone to leave. Then I went home.
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not surprising my parents were waiting for me.
Great.
I didn't even want to know what would happen today.
"Welcome back freak" they said to greet me.
I rolled my eyes and went up to my room. Hoping they wouldn't break my door this time, I locked it.
I went in my bed, took of my hoodie, threw away the bandages, and crawled under the covers. I put on my headphones and turned on my music.
Not long after i drifted off to sleep.
Luke's POV
"What's wrong mate? You're acting weird" Michael asked me.
"Huh?! Oh, I'm just thinking" I answered.
I felt a connection with that kid, one I've never felt before. I don't think it was love. Or maybe it was. Maybe it was for help. His eyes were a dull hazel, beautiful though. It was like his eyes were begging for help. But I don't know why, or how. I just know something is wrong.
"Did you here me?!" Calum yelled in my ear.
"No, what?" I asked getting annoyed.
"Wanna go to that little park they just built? It looks childish, I bet if we tried hard enough we will get kicked out" Calum said laughing.
"Sure?" I said laughing a little too.
We walked out of Michaels house walking to the little park they just built.
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When we got to the park, it was fucking packed! Gosh!
I didn't think it would be like this.
When we found a bench with only one guy on it we took it as a chance to sit.
It wasn't like a concert packed, more like a not enough benches for everyone packed.
If that makes sense?
I looked over at the guy.
It was the kid I ran into in the halls earlier.
"Hi! I'm Luke" I said holding out my hand.
He looked at my hand, then looked back at the book he was reading.
"Sorry for bumping in to you today" I said trying to make him speak.
He wasn't even acknowledging me.
Ashton's POV
That kid is talking to me again. This is fucking strange! Like WTF is happening right now? I get up from a freaking nap, get slapped in the face several times, then have a cute boy talk to me?
Goddammit why did I have to promise myself something! It sucks! But I know It will get easier.
He will probably try and be friends, then right when i trust him, he will leave me crying in a ditch, just like everyone else.
I don't want it to happen again.
I got up, and walked home, hating myself... Again.
Hating myself for being a wimp, for being afraid of a human.
Gosh, why am I so stupid.
I went in my bathroom, locked the door.
Looked in the cupboard to get my razor.
I held it up to my skin so hard. So fucking hard! I whimpered loudly.
I pushed it across my wrist, leaving blood everywhere. Quickly washing it off and wrapping it up, I went downstairs for dinner.
Actually, me sitting at the dinner table, waiting for my parents to leave so I could throw away my plate. It's been like that for a year. I'm a fucking fat-ass.
So that's what I'd do tonight, nothing different.
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