but i must say

fourth

i still remember the way

you smiled when you talked

that glint in your eyes,

your crooked smile

and the fake leg that

helped you walk.

you wanted the world to love you,

but in the end you realised,

all that mattered was that

i love you and you love me.

the day you closed your eyes forever

and you wouldn't

grace the world with your laughter

the void sucking me in went

black and blacker.

when i saw youin your coffin

your eyes closed and your hair combed back

i secretly slipped in

a packet of cigarettes.

i disappeared into the beautiful memories,

staying up countless night saying

okay? okay.

but it's all right now,

i won't cry anymore

you're not here,

but you're somewhere

our souls are still entwined,

our names still written on stone,

and i will always have an augustus waters fetish

as you know.