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Like I'm Gonna Lose You

[ PSA: You should listen to Like I'm Gonna Lose You by Meghan Trainor ft. John Legend when your read this, para mas dama!! Anw enjoooy! ]

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I found myself dreaming
In silver and gold
Like a scene from a movie
That every broken heart knows

" Jae! Come here! " my girl shouts, patting the seat beside her.

" Bel, calm down! Wag ka sumigaw! " I say, chuckling as I sit down beside her.

" Bwisit ka Alexandre Jae. " she says, and rolls her eyes at me.

" Shut up Isabel Beatriz, you love me " sabi ko naman at niyakap siya.

I love her, I just love her so much. And I can't imagine a day without her.

I'm sick, I've been given only a month left to live, I don't know how the hell I'm going to tell her. I just don't want to break her heart. She's too precious.

We were walking on moonlight
And you pulled me close
Split second and you disappeared
And then I was all alone

" WHAT THE FUCK! BAKIT NGAYON MO LANG SINABI SAKIN TO? " I shout, tears running down my cheeks. " Jae, don't leave me. "

" I'm not leaving you Bel, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. " he says, pulling me into his arms.

" Life is so unfair! " I sob.

I woke up in tears
With you by my side
A breath of relief
And I realized
No, we're not promised tomorrow

" Jae, no! Wag ganto, don't leave me! Alexandre! TANGINA NAMAN! " I scream, snapping out of my nightmare.

My cheeks were wet, my eyes hurt so much. I just wish that I'd get to spend more time with him. He means everything to me. I can't just let him go.

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
And I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time
So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

" Bel! " my Jae, calls for me as I walk towards him.

" Hi! " I say, smiling at him.

" Go on a road trip with me? " he offers his hand and I don't think twice to hold it.

" Let's " I answer, resting my head on his shoulder.

In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know

We were at the back of his truck, watching movies for God knows how long. We were in Tagaytay, under the stars. Happy, just happy.

" Bel? " he calls for me.

" Yes Jae? " I answer.

" I love you. "

" I love you more. "

So I'll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I'll make the most of the minutes
And love with no regrets

The rest of the night was spent in comfortable silence. We also talked about the future, our future. We told numerous stories & such.

I fell asleep on his arms. Sa pagkakaalala ko we watched another movie before sleep took over my system.

I wake up with a smile on my face. Another day with my baby. Another day of happiness. Little did I know, it wasn't happiness.

Let's take our time to say what we want
Here's what we got before it's all gone
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow

I check my phone for the time, 10:00 na.

" Jae, wake up na. " I say, shaking him lightly.

He wasn't waking up.

I furrow my eyebrows, why isn't he waking up. " Alexandre! "

" Okay Jae, stop na! This isn't a good joke! " sabi ko ulit at pilit siyang gisingin.

" Jae, please don't do this. Wag ganto. Gumising ka diyan! " I cry out, shaking him some more.

My heart begins to beat faster, my heart hurts.

" Jae! " I cry out, hugging him. " Don't leave me like this. "

So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time
So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

" Maddie, he's really gone. " I sob into my best friends shirt. She caresses my back, trying her best to comfort me.

" Bea, I'm so sorry. You'll get through this. Andito ako. Andito kami. " she whispers in my ear.

I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye
Wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted
'Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time
So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

I stare at the ground, smiling, " Happy anniversary Jae. "

Alexandre Jae Arcilla
April 2, - August 3, 2025
" Gone too soon "

I felt cold air wrap around me, he's here. He's with me.