Poetry, I guess

i wish

I wish I were more than i am.
I wish i could make a difference that makes a difference,
have an impact that impacts people,
and wish what I am good at could do more good to others than it does now.
I want to be more than i am capable of and sometimes it seems so far out of reach that I can't imagine what I want anymore.
I want more than my life can offer,
more fulfillment than life can fulfill, and I'm trying to reach for what's out of reach.
I find it difficult to handle, the fact that although the sky is the limit, gravity has a hold on me like my GPA has on where I can go in life.
The weight of what I want outweighs what I can accomplish, and I feel TRAPPED sometimes.
How do I get to where I want when the plane isn't taking off?
Where do I go to get to where I want to be, because... where I'm at now?
It pains in comparison to what I want to be.