Poetry, I guess

i wish

I wish I were more than i am.

I wish i could make a difference that makes a difference,

have an impact that impacts people,

and wish what I am good at could do more good to others more than it does to myself.

I want to be more than i am capable of and sometimes it seems so far out of reach that I can't imagine what I want anymore.

I want more than my life can offer,

more fulfillment than life can fulfill,

and I'm trying to reach for what's out of reach.

I find it difficult to handle,

the fact that although the sky is the limit,
gravity has a hold on me like a grade has on where I can go in life.

The weight of what I want outweighs what I can accomplish, and I feel TRAPPED sometimes.

How do I get to where I want when the plane isn't taking off?

Where do I go to get to where I want to be, because where I'm at now?

It pains in comparison to what I wish to be.