Patrick's P.O.V
I cried last night , I cried last night kase naman nagshare si Ara ng past nya and she was drunk and we are drunk. Masakit yun sobra. As in!..Tapos si Gabi naman natulak ni Mj yung bali. Yan tuloy naiyak ako. Sakit din nun and.....Meron pa ba? Wala nanaman.
Nagscoscroll ako ng phone ngayon. Nakikita ko lang pic ni John, Cute.... Mabait naman sya. I mean I do have an interaction with him from the last 2 years. Gr.8.
"Teka ano ba ngayon?" tanong ko sa sarili ko. August ngayon....
"OUCH, Sakit ng puso ko" Teka bakit ganun naman yung lumabas sa bibig ko. Ano ba yan, I'm so liking him na......Wag ganun. Sabagay Crush lang naman so it so natural.\
I also remember last night from Ara. They understand what it feels? Pero Nobody does and Nobody will. So she said I should confess" Like what.....
at first I can't hardly think...Sila kung merong feelings sa akin. It will be like 0.1% that they like me or either it's miracle.
"Hayys Naku Patrick ganito kasi yun....It's no it first kasi" sabi ni Leina
"Like what are you sayin?!" sabi ko
"Wag mo kong englishin" sabi nya at pinalo ako.
"Crush mo ba sya....or is it lust" tanong ni Leina
"I don't know my confirmation ba nun?" tanong ko
"Well.....Nagsasave ka ba ng picture nya sa cellphone mo?" tanong ni Leina
"I have no load" at umayos ako ng upo
"Iniimagine mo na kasama mo sya sa future?" at kinuha nya yung phone nya
"Of course sino bang hindi...Although di ko pala alam" at kinuha ko yung baso at uminom.
"Nalulungkot ka ba kapag nagkakaroon sya ng relasyon?"
"Di ko alam"
"Kapag kausap mo sya nauutal ka ba?"
"Madalang..........or madalas.....or maybe never naman kaming mag-usap"
"Hinahanap mo sya?"
"Mukha bang hindi"
"Sa tuwing ngumingiti sya napapangiti ka ba"
"Kahit nga hindi sya ngumingiti eh"
"Nalulungkot ka sa tuwing di mo sya nakikita o parang di kompleto araw mo"
"Di naman, Siguro, Baka, Oo"
"Gumagawa ka ng storya kasama sya"
"Maybe?!"
"Marami pang pwedeng confirmation pero malalaman nya yun kapag tiningan nya ang mata mo #Nainlove ka na ba" sabi ni Leina.
"Sa Totoo lang san mo nakuha yan. May pahashtag ka pa talaga" sabi ko
After then saka ko lang nakuha ang concept ng crush. CRUSH, CRUSH, CRUSH......
Like...What to do..? Narealized kong it's been six days nung nagsulat ako dito sa journal ko. Habang hawak ko yung aking notebook. Like the heck I forgot to update.
Umuwi na ako ng bahay pero wala si Ate or Si Couz. So boring isa pa narealized kong etong diary ko ay Notebook Planner. So Diary....Planner
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Tatlong araw na ang nakakalipas pero hindi pa ako pinapansin nila Reya, Mika, Ferry, at yung ibang mga kafriend. Si Ara naman is well busy naman. Kasi may lovelife na .
So I have no one to talk with. PEro kinausap ako ni Leina
"Patrick....I think you need to uncrush Mark..." sabi ni Leina
"Why...?!" tanong ko
"Coz It's not good for you" sabi ni Leina
"How...." tanong ko
"KALIMUTAN MUNA SYA?! Gr.10 ka na and Gr.8 mo pa sya crush" sabi ni Leina
Di ko na tinapos yung conversation. Umuwi na ako sa bahay ng walang kasabay. I'm being forced. Am I being forced? Why am I being forced? Why should I being forced?"
Galit na galit ako. Galit na galit as in super galit.
I shouldn't be like this kung hindi lang ako niloko......Well It's also my fault to like him.
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EAN?!" ARE YOU OK?!" You are not showing up from school. "
Who's that?" I spoke
"What are you saying?" a girl spoke
"My eyes are blurry..." I said
"Are you ok?" she asked
"I don't know?! I'll be ok" I said
"Ok...., I'll wait for you to come back" she said
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"Are you ok?" Tanong ni Mary.
Oh....I forgot this is the next day and nasa school na ako. Naiisip ko pa rin yung panaginip ko.
"I'm ok...." sabi ko at nakita kong binabasa nya na pala yung notebook kong black.
Nagdidiscuss na si Sir ngayon and I also forgot I cried yesterday. That's why my eyes is like this.
I always question myself kung mali ba ang magkacrush sa kanya. I know I'm a Bi....Naconfirm ko nanaman.
Pero wala naman akong inaangkin. As in nothing. I spend my class to talking to Mary.
Maganda nga syang kausap eh. Natandaan ko nga noong gr.9 lang ang last kong kausap ko sa kanya. Hehehe......Nahatak pa ako nina Ferry para magjournalist this past few months lang.
Nakikita ko silang dalawa but I never talk to any of them. I hope It don't turned out to be weird one. Pero good thing my mate is talking to me si Lisa. She is gr.9 this year and I am gr.10 hehe weird details.
I'm glad Lisa talked to me. Kung hindi ma-oout of place na ako nun. Ok back to reality. Me and Mary had been talking for hours now. Masaya naman ako kapag kausap sya kasi she had a thing to her words.
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