Two Moons, One Heart

Dear Hazel

I wanted to send this message to you because I wanted to express how I really felt. Firstly I understand you have a boyfriend now but I'm still totally in love with you. I just am. Never gonna stop. I just can't get over you and I spend my spare time occasionally fanitising about what we would have done should our relationship have continued.

Even though I sometimes feel like I'm beating my head on a brick wall sometimes when we have an argument or you get upset and push me away, I'll never stop till either my head or the wall gives. Why? Because I know you will have to do the same when I blame myself for everything that ever went wrong. That and the fact that seeing you suffer makes me die inside.

I hate it when you put yourself down because I see someone so beautiful and sweet yet you see everything but the good. I consider you perfect in almost every way don't you know. I just want to make you feel better. Seeing you smile because of something I did makes my day spin slower. Why slower? Because if you "Made my world go round" then it would be at normal speed. And I'd have less time to be with you.

I'm sorry my brain is so logical. It just works that way. I wish I wasn't so logical as I push everyone away. All the time. Everyday. My friends, my family and you. I wish I could find a way to switch it all off.

I hope you find time to respond.

Your best friend

Jet