A Different Kind Of Love Story

14. The confession

    As I was saying, Axel suddenly stopped walking. He turned to me, looked in my eyes and said:

    A: "Den, we came closer these weeks and...I just wanted to say that you are very special to me and that I don't want to lose you. I just had to ask-"

      No, Axel. No! Don't-

   A: "-will you be my girlfriend?"

    I looked in his eyes. He was waiting desperately. I tortured him every second I didn't say anything.

     Me: "Axel...I'm not allowed to date yet-"

      A: "You don't have to tell anyone anything!"

    Me: "Let me finish. I don't want to hurt you, you are really nice and you were the only one that noticed me when no one did, but I don't...see you that way."

    Don't look at me like that! I never liked him that way!

      He turned his head away from me.

   Axel's POV

She...rejected me. It hurts, for some reason. It hurts so much! I...

     Me: "I'll tell everyone about 6th grade."

    D: "Wh-what!?"

     Me: "If you don't accept being my girlfriend, I'll tell everyone about all that happened in 6th grade. Not only that, but all your secrets." I looked her in the eyes.

   D: "Go ahead, you jerk! Tell everyone how I despised them! And tell them also how much I despise you too! Do you think I care?! They were never my friends, but at least they were better than you!

          "Honestly, fuck you."

  Those were her final words before she turned away and started walking in the opposite direction.

    I was left there.

   M-my plan...didn't work...

    I felt...heartbeoken. It genuenly hurt. I fell on my knees, holding my head in my hands.

      I messed it all up. I could've been nice about it and continue. I-I regret everything!

    Den's POV

  I was still shocked. Is this the person he really was all this time? He couldn't have done all this because of his anger, he is a much more rational person.

    He did the same thing Kara did. She was my best friends too, then left me for the 'popular kids'. She never spoke to me after that.

   Axel did almost the same thing, only this time it didn't hurt as much.

   Who am I kidding? It hurt even more than before. Just...

   I walked away, knowing he was a traitor. I really didn't care if he told everyone about my secrets because I didn't even tell him secrets. They were only memories that only I knew. I never meant for them to be secrets.

  The next day, after I cried my eyes out one more night, I come to my whole class laughing at me.

   So he told them. He really did. I still had hope that he would apologise, but I guess not.

   That's how the rest of my days at school went. We never talked again after that. Everyone was still laughing  at me, but I wasn't affected by it, or so I thought.

   Every moment hurt, every single word, everything. It was painful.

  One random day Axel sent me a message telling me about his 'plan' or whatever. After that I felt even worse.

   He used me. He was putting up a facade the entire time we were together, I thought that I finally found a friend, but...no.

   I feel so lonely that words can't even describe it. Even though there are lots of people dear to me around, I still feel like shit.

    I'll never understand why people are so cruel, even at this age too.

  I looked back at his message, to see what his reason was.

   "I used you. I saw you alone and vulnerabile so I took advantage.
    I thought I could use you to get me information, I wanted you to 'be my friend' and to do whatever I ask you to do, but that hasn't worked out.

    I hope your dad will realise what an awful daughter you are and causes you more pain, spoiled brat.
   
    No one will ever be your friend because you're a creepy bitch.

    And if you tell someone about this I'll ruin your life. I can do that since I'm rich.

    Watch your back."

   Honestly, first time I read it I couldn't process what was written in the message, but now I understood every single word.

   He was furious because his 'plan' didn't work out. I could see it in his message.
    Honestly, I was furious too. He shouldn't even be angry in the first place!
   I am the one suffering from your actions, not vice versa!

   Anyway, as months passed, I started falling into depression again.
   Every day that passed I felt my soul falling apart, piece by piece, until nothing was left, only an empty, souless body. Me.

   Axel's POV

   We never talked again. Not even once. I told everyone about everything we talked about. I even posted the recording of when we talked about our dads.

   I did it because I was very mad at her. I was very mad that my plan didn't work out. I wanted to be able to control her, but I never did.

    Everyone bullied her after that, everyday. She didn't seem affected by it. Her grades were the same, she even got higher grades than me!

    I just can't understand why! It should have ruined her!

    I even see her sometimes walking in the city with her mom, and she's always full of joy!

    Seeing her getting better than me at everything only made me miserable, so I wrote her a text, explaining everything. At that point, I only hated her, nothing more. She was my enemy.

   I wrote a long text, until anger took over me. I unintentionally started insulting her without holding back.

    I knew that If I send her this, she will be destroyed. That's exactly what I wanted.

  

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