just let me love you

Chapter 1

"No but Alecia, really which one is better?" Courtney asks swaying in the mirror.

"The first one is very sparkly but you should go with the black one, it's more you" I say knowing both would look gorgeous I her.

"Are you sure because I think the pink one looks..." She is interrupted by a text message. "Sorry it's Jace." Ever since Caleb and I broke up I have been feeling weird not being in a relationship. I guess I just got so used to having a routine and letting him know where I was and what I was doing all the time. I know it's probably unhealthy to depend so much on one person, because I feel a little lost and strange. I'm not a dependent person but Caleb and I were together for a while. And every time Courtney mentions Jace I feel a little jealous that her relationship has managed to stay stable.
"Just wear the black one, trust me it would be Jace's pick too" I tell her. Suddenly my phone starts vibrating and I reach over to the bedside table to unplug it. I glance down and pick up the phone. "Hey we are down in the lobby what level is your's", Bree's familiar voice asks.
"Yeh we are on 12. Are you with Chloe?"
"Heeeeyyyy Ali!!" Chloe answers me.

"So we are in the elevator now, but I forgot but I forgot my hair straightener, can I use yours?"

"Of courses you can but I think Courtney wants to use it too" I respond.

"Yeah your gonna have to to wait Bree!", Courtney yells from the bathroom in laughter.

"Ok well see you when we're up there"

"Bye"

"First things first, your gonna get all dressed up and your getting back on the horse tonight", says Courtney as I walk into the bathroom.
"Um yeh I don't know", I say.
I know she means well but I'm not looking forward to 'getting back on the horse tonight'. I just want to go out and have a great night clubbing with all my girls. On the other hand Courtney's not going to stop hassling me about it.

"Come on Caleb was a jerk and did not deserved you. Yes he broke your heart but you can't stay single forever!"

"You do know although it's weird not being in a relationship the last 3 weeks have actually kind of been a relief. It's nice to put myself first after such a long time."
I tell my friend who believes it is impossible to live without a boyfriend. She has always been that way ever since high school. She wasn't allowed to date but did anyway as she adored the thought of having someone to be constantly there to hold her hand and pick her up again. Courtney has always been a sucker for love and I can hardly remember a time when she hasn't been with someone. But I'm happy for her through all her heartbreaks, I think Jace is good for her. He doesn't have the nicest background but he at least doesn't punch his girlfriend like Caleb did me. The foggy mirror from the shower steam takes me back to a month ago and my stomach starts to swirl. The rain, bruises, drenched hair and the raw knuckles colide with my thoughts while in that soaked navy jumper. I quickly push the flashback of that dreadful night in the fogged up car to the back of my mind. And focus on the knocking of the apartment door to drain the flashback away.

"Alecia, you answer it" says Courtney, who drops out of every little thing she does. Even at work, I end up doing stuff for her. I give in and leave the ensuite into my lounge room. As I make my way to the door, pick up the magazines that are laying on the floor. I've alway been a perfectionist ad sometimes I wonder if it's part of the reason why Caleb and I broke up. But then I remember what he did, how he hit me. I loved him and if he just let me help him this wouldn't of happened. If he just didn't leave that night to 'hang out with his friends' we would still be together. He was good and I saw that small part of him. But I couldn't keep doing it, living with fear. I needed support and a stable relationship but he couldn't give me that.
"Hurry up Alecia", yells Chloe from the door, bringing me back to reality.