Staring into
Blurred darkness just shadows around
I can see the bright screen, not missing it’s piercing light
A tear sheds and flees from my right cheek
Eyes frantically looking from left to right
Calm heavy breaths
A trauma at my blinding spot
‘Don’t look there’
‘Don’t think about it, stop’
‘Make it stop’
‘NO'
The twitching begins again
where the lonely stays at your side.
It’s my friend you see
I smile while typing the pain of a crying yell
listening to the screams of far away anger
Asking meaningless questions.
Why won’t the pain stop even when I’m not wounded.
Why is it getting harder to breathe.
‘Don’t look there’
‘Don’t think about it, stop!’
‘Make it stop’
‘PLEASE NO!’
My heart starts racing unexpectedly at a moving muscle
Chanting and arguments linger along my thoughts.
Words jammed smashing into a disgusting mess
What am I?
Why do I continue even though my fingers get heavier
Slower as I go
Unbelievably fake
‘DON’T LOOK THERE’
‘DON’T THINK ABOUT IT, PLEASE STOP!’
‘MAKE IT STOP’
Why is the screams stuck on replay?
Why is the invisible wound getting deeper?
Why is there darkness in light?
‘NO! STOP IT’
‘NO NO NO NO NO’
A lock of hair being pulled into another dimension
Eyes weary and unfocused
Hardened hearts with brick old shoulders
‘NO NO PLEASE!!’
The screams are at the point of no return
The tears shower my fake smile.
‘NO!’
‘STOP’
‘PLEASE’
It’ll never end
‘NOOO!’
‘NO.'
Just please make it end.
