BamBam's POV:
I feel like Jackson doesn't love me anymore. He's never with me anymore, he's always with his friends these days, partying until midnight. I love him but I'm scared for our relationship.
Jaebum always makes time for Youngjae, Mark always makes time for Jinyoung, why can't Jackson make time for me?
I'm at my job at a little bookstore as usual. Working to provide for my cats.
Youngjae, Jaebum, Mark, Jinyoung and Yugyeom don't know what's going on and honestly...
Neither do I.
I don't know what I did to upset him or make him not want to be with me at the moment but, I just want him here with me.
I don't care what we do. I just want him so much.
I'm looking for a book for a girl and finally find it and check her out. She seems really excited to read.I text Jackson telling him about the guys coming over later. And all he says is "stop bothering me I'm working."
I don't get it. Why is he doing this? I wait till seven when I get off of work. I walk home in the rain alone. It looks like the Epiphany music video. (<3)
I get home and throw my house keys on the table. I take a long shower and try to relax myself and try not to get mad at Jackson.
He should be here with me, waiting on our friends. The front door opens and I perk up, then sink down when it's Youngjae and Jaebum, not my boyfriend.
Everyone else arrives and we all sit in mine and Jackson's living room. "Where's Jackson?" Youngjae asks. "I don't know" I say back.
Me and the boys enjoy our evening together with no sign from Jackson. They all decide to leave and I wave them off.
I start playing with my cats shrunk in the sofa, sad , angry and confused. As all my cats cuddle me on the couch. I hear the door bust open and see my boyfriend drunk off his ass with his friends.
I get my cats and go to the guest room and set them on the bed. I didn't even want to see Jackson. I go get my pajamas and latte runs out of the room and into the living room.
I immediately and run and get my cat. Jackson and them just scowl at it and me when I pick it and leave. I pet my latte and go to the guest room and lay on the bed.
Our group chat has the boys spamming asking what Jackson is doing or where he was. I want him to come in here and love me.
I'm gonna say something tomorrow because I can't live like this anymore. I just hope he will not dump me. No matter what I still love him.
I'm crying now and my cats are snuggling to my face to get me to stop. I smile and fall asleep while hot tears are falling down my cheeks.
In the morning I get up and go in the living room to see Jackson cleaning from last night. He looks at me and turns back to what he was doing. I get some breakfast and sit at the table.
"Jackson, I love you but, why do you neglect me these days?"
Jackson stays quiet and then slowly answers "because... I'm tired of you're nagging"
I'm shocked. "What?" "I hate being suffocated by you! You constantly need to know where I am and I'm sick of it!" He yells coming closer to me.
He looks at me with me with anger and I say "Jackson, please it hurts. I need you." He raises his hand and I flinch and try to protect Latte as I was holding him.
"B-BamBam"
I heard Jackson shuffle and I look up at him bowing his head in shame. He can't even look at me.
The whole day we didn't speak to each other. And the tension in the room was suffocating. Even still, I love him to death and I would still do anything for him.
"Sleep on the couch tonight please?" He nods and goes to the couch silently.
I go in the room and call my cats in there and start thinking about Jackson. He's been hostile these days. I want it to change
I want my Jackson back........
I wake up in the middle of the night and walk in the living room. I want to forgive Jackson and have him hold me. I start shaking him
"Jackson...." I whisper. He wakes up and sits up on the couch next to me and hugs me.
"I'm so sorry baby, I'm the worst boyfriend ever." I hug back and whisper it's okay to him. He eventually calms down and I speak up. "Jackson, I love you so much," I start
He looks down thinking I want to break up. I pick up his head and kiss him. He kisses back and puts his hands on my hips. I smile into the kiss and it gets more heated.
We pull apart gasping for air. "Listen, I won't be treated like this and you will not come home drunk every night. Because I can't handle you not being here with me."
"You're right, you deserve to be treated like a king." I look at him and tangle my hands in his hair. Jackson picks me up and takes me to bed. He lays me down and turns to leave.
I quickly get his hand and say "stay." He smiles and climbs into bed with me. We kiss and give pecks to each other. And we both fall asleep tangled into each other's arms.
