Confused // Sean Mcloughlin

chapter 11

Sean/jacks pov

I need to stop now, i need to leave before he notices. I pulled away from the kiss and turned around. He put his arms around my waist from behind and put his head on my shoulder. I swallowed hard as his hands moved down. I closed my eyes wanting his touch but nothing came. I felt him move away from me

I opened my eyes and turned my head around slightly so he couldn't see it. He was smirking. "(Y/n)...what are you doing"

"You wanted me to stop, didn't you? You're not into guys, so i can't help your friend over there." He jumped on the bed and said "bathroom's over there, unfortunately i only have magazines with guys in them."

I sped walked into the bathroom and locked the door

Your pov

Sean brought me home from the bar, he thought i was drunk but i was actually drinking water. I didn't feel like drinking. Once we were in the apartment, i couldn't hold it together anymore. I kissed him and wrapped my arms around his waist as he kissed back wrapping his hands around my neck.

He pulled away and looked me in my eyes then said "no, we can't do this...i can't just take advantage of your drunken state...and I'm not even into guys, plus its-" i cut him off by kissing him again. He pulled away. And must have realized that we had been moving from the door to the bedroom

"(Y/n) your drunk! You don't know what your doing"

I straightened myself, gave a gentle smile and said "do i smell or act like I've been drinking?" He looked like he was thinking for a minute and then started talking.

"So you're not-" again i cut him off by kissing him. I wanted him so bad...

He pulled away from the kiss and turned around. He was hard, i could feel him while we were kissing, i walked up to him and snaked my arms around his waist. I started moving my hands down and he tensed up. It was obvious he wanted to stop, so to save myself from the embarrassment of having him tell me he's straight, again. I let go.

He turned his head slightly and looked at me over his shoulder and i gave a fake smirk. He asked "(y/n)....what are you doing"

"You wanted me to stop, didn't you? You're not into guys, so i can't help your friend over there." I jumped on the bed and said "bathrooms over there, unfortunately i only have magazines with guys in them."

He sped walked into the bathroom and locked the door.

I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes thinking. Why did i have to fall in love with him? He's driving me crazy. First he says he's into girls then he kisses me back. What is wrong with him?! He's not supposed to be toying with my feelings! It's supposed to be the other way around!

Why me?

Why him?