I can't believe what I heard today in the car, I was shopping with my mom and as we drove to get our cold coffee drinks, the topic of my sister comes up. I told her how I felt about the situation, how I felt relieved it wasn't my fault but also how it still pained me. I told her that my sister told me how she's trying her best, and I decided to be brave and mistakenly touched on a sensitive topic. " Rakueru has told me that she felt mostly depressed because she felt as if..." My voice lowered.. "As if.. you and Dad are too hard on her.." I look at her to see her reaction, she wasn't too happy. That's such a lie she said quickly. I can tell it upset her a lot and then she says. "Jakurīn" she said sternly. "Don't believe one word she says, she's a liar, just trust mommy and daddy." "But maybe that's how she felt? Even if you weren't trying to be, you know.." "No, stop defending your sister, you shouldn't trust her.
The rest of the car ride was silent.
All those words struck my heart. What did my sister do to make her a liar? Why are you so hard on her? Why are you telling me not to trust my own sister? That wasn't the last time I heard my mom say those things, a couple other times after that one she had said the same thing, and the same questions would pop up in mind again. As a mother why would you say such awful things about your own daughter? Would I be treated as badly as my sister soon? By my own parents?
It is true that the rage I felt at that moment, was so strong that for a split second it turned to hate.
My mom wasn't the only one changing my dad was too. He became so angry, yells at me all the time, it's honestly so annoying, everything has to be his way and he wants you to achieve it. Maybe they haven't changed.. maybe I'm just now realizing how they are, as if a curse was broken and everything I once saw as wonderful became reality. My parents are starting to stop looking like humans, I think I see monsters wearing a mask.
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Horror"Loving was never the problem, it was that I loved you too much that it became dangerous" Jakurīn has codependency tendencies but nothing too serious at least that's what she thinks. She should be fine, but certain situations start testing her sane...
