So today at school wasn't too bad I guess, there's always some kind of bad moment but I rather be at hell school than to be at home where my parents yell at me for not doing something their way or messing up. My sister understood me in that aspect, actually she had it way worse than me, my parents seemed to have it our for her, ..poor thing. No matter what my parents would say though, I always stood up for her, she must be utterly exhausted.
I didn't understand that a couple months ago, how hard it was to live with these parents, but as I reach an older age I start to see how suffocating it truly is. I start to see my parents true form, they still love us I'm sure of it but sometimes it feels like they just might hate us.
Swinging was always my favorite thing to do at the park, I could swing for hours, I close my eyes and breathe in the fresh breezy air, I've always loved spring too. I wasn't someone that was in need of a friend, I had many, and a few besties, but none ever fill the void, the space that only one person could fill. I don't know why I'm thinking of stuff that make me feel depressed, honestly what is wrong with me..? Maybe that's why she doesn't love me, because I'm so stupid, good for nothing, annoying. Ugh I'm doing it again, I really need to get my mind off of things, plus your parents told you that it wasn't your fault, it's not Rakueru's either, she can't help it, she just has some issues.
Lying on my bed I start to think some more, I think too much.
I remember that time she left us... now she's back but for how long? I don't want her to leave again, I don't want her to ever leave me.
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I Know You Love Me but Would You Kill For Me?
Horor"Loving was never the problem, it was that I loved you too much that it became dangerous" Jakurīn has codependency tendencies but nothing too serious at least that's what she thinks. She should be fine, but certain situations start testing her sane...
