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Chapter 1: The Breather

"Nicole I really need to do this, okay I'm just tired of everything everyone's telling me what I should be doing. I hear one thing and then I hear another. I can't even wrap my head around the first event. I JUST NEED A BREAK. Okay I just need one please let me go and take a breather" I say to my best friend. And when saying that I was going through my cabinets and separating the clothes I would be taking to my trip.

"So you think leaving the state will solve all your problems huh. For a girl that got fucken validitorion you are fucken retarded you know. Who the fuck knew, oh right me. Why because I have always been there for you and I'm telling  you that your decision is stupid. It's not that simple Jessica fucken grow up and face your fucken problem stop being a fucken bitch for once in your fucken life. Get that big fucken head of yours out your fucken ass and face the real life problems". Nicole say aggravated with my decision. One of the many she had disagreed on the past eleven years.

I have always been the stupid one between our friendship but that doesn't stop her from saying it because I know she wants to stick something through my thick fucken skull. What can I say it's a talent of mine.

"What do you want me to do" I question her but I didn't give her enough time to respond before I say "what, do you want me to go the cops and tell them that I was seconds away from getting raped again. They will will probably going to tell me that I'm fine when I'm hundred percent not fine since this was obviously not the first time I'm going with this and can I tell you something it can be by the same guy. Nicole I've always been barely to see a glimpse of his face. He is unrecognizable. He is no one I know. How is telling the police going to help when I can barely have evidence myself to help them. It is  fucken usless. There is no way of helping me with this. I can't tell my family because they would think I'm in need of attention because I have been the attention whore as you and everyone else would say. Tell me I'm saying something wrong, come on tell me I am wrong". I say really annoyed at my friend because she is not taking me side and supporting my decision on this.

"Jessica you know that you are NOT an attention whore. And you can tell the police because you yourself said that you have had a glimpse of the man that almost raped you. You just don't want to tell your parents because you don't want to be seen as a wild child. You want to be squeaky clean Jessica, the one that never sneaks out to parties, drinks and get high ALL THE DAMN TIME. Well then Jessica you have always said that you will always do the right thing. This is the time to tell people. Speak out Jessica, please for your own safety please". She says at the verge of tears. It was painful for me to see because I know that she wants me to speak up but I'm just scared.

Scared that one day I'll be forever gone. That one day I'll be raped for the stupid shit I do all the damn time. Sacred that one day the guy that almost raped me three times is actually going to do to me for real and no one will be able to save me.

"Okay fine, I'll help you convince your parents but there will be rules you have to obey". She tells me in a Stern voice. As you can tell she is the mom in the friendship but there are times that I have to fix her head a bit.

"First we have to share locations again. Always have it on share location and if you have to hide it, hide it in you shoe, breast or your vigina weird I know but who knows it might help. Second always have your phone a portable charger with you. Third if you are in danger scream on top of your lungs of you are in a place with a crowd and if not elbow the person on the stomach, poke their eyes hard and kick them in the groin. And last but not least always press the on button three times and click on the police call for the need in help and if you ever do that have your phone on silent". With that she is done looks at me worriedly.

"I'm going to be fine Nicole. I have Chris and his family. I'll be fine and I promise I'll be back before everything changes". I say trying to sound calm for her but mostly for myself.

A/N: So this is my first book and I'm here to tell you that this is all fake and NOTHING in this book is going to be 100% true. Plus these are all MY ideas.