What If I Jump?

June 14, 1998

Diary-

Today is my two year friendversary with Olivia. On the day we met, she had said that photography gives a new perspective to a familiar setting. She continued to tell me that I'm creative and that she has always loved the millions of pictures I take. So I spent hours putting together a small photo album of us to give to her and in turn she had bought me a new camera, only feeding my photography addiction.

Jason and I have been together for a month now, and things are going smoothly. He just got his new job at Burger King and promised that his first check will go towards taking me on an actual date! He seems very romantic. We've been meeting at the park on Wednesdays. Last Wednesday we met rather late and we had just enough time to swing and watch the sunset. Unfortunately, I got the creaky swing and each time I would rock back and forth, the swing screeched like a pterodactyl. I ended up laughing so hard that I almost peed my pants. That was the night I knew I loved him. Those forest green eyes of his mesmerized me as he watched my face brighten. That night inspired me to paint him a sunset picture for a special occasion.

Meanwhile, Katrina and I have somewhat of a fight going on between us. We have been friends for three years now, and all of a sudden she started hanging out with the girls that usually bully me. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but that doesn't feel right at all... I only asked her to avoid them, but now she hangs out with them everyday. She completely withdraws herself from me other than death glares and snooty comments. I was hoping to patch things up but now it looks rather unlikely. I wish things didn't have to be this way...

I guess things aren't all that bad right now. I still have Olivia and Jonas. As long as they're by my side, then I will be fine.

~Ella