Dear J

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Dear J,
I cried today for the first time in months. I was looking at pictures of us and I realized that I haven't gotten over you yet. I miss you and I want you back.

You're with her still and I'm with him now.

I made a mistake in accepting him thinking that I was gonna forget you.

I'm hurting him by being this selfish but I'm hurting myself more because I can't bring my self to love him like he deserves.

If you were here I would be the same happy girl full of love and energy that I was before. Or maybe if I hadn't met you I would be the same girl not this girl I've turned into, I sometimes feel like I don't have a heart, the things that use to affect me so much now don't have an effect on me at all.

Am I still alive?

Miss you,