Dear J

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Dear J,
I miss you... I've been crying a lot lately and I've been ignoring S. I think about you all the time. At work at home. And I can't bring myself to do anything I spend my time laying in bed crying. It's been over a year since we broke up but why can't I move on?

Please leave me. Let me love someone else.

Why do you still haunt me? Why do I still love you?

I fucking hate myself for loving you still.

Please I beg you please

Let me get over you

I don't think I can take this much pain

You are pain

I hate you ... no I don't ... how could I hate you when I love you so much?
But it's time for me to move on. Don't you think?