Is it meant to be? (ShinKami)

Chapter 1

"It might take years to realize how hurt you are by the words people speak, but it takes even longer to realize how much their actions have hurt you."

(NA P.O.V)

Shinsou laid on his mattress, Tears streaming down his face like it was a waterfall. He couldn't believe how disgustingly mean people could be. Although he thought all the things said were true. He believed every word because his mind said it was, truly pushing him to the edge. The time was about 8:00 pm, well after Eri had gone to bed and Aizawa and Yamada were probably almost asleep on the couch watching some comedic show that Father put on. (Father, in this case, is Hizachi)

He slowly walked over to the bathroom and opened the cabinet. He carefully grabbed a razor and walked back up to his room. He sat next to his bed and slowly inching the blade across his arm.

Disrespectful and Ungrateful- He never respected his teachers or fellow classmates and fairly never bothered to listen to them or make friends. He wasn't grateful apparently, why? Well because of the fact that he never really played with anything he had and didn't bother to even look at the things that he was given. The truth was he thought making friends was a waste of time because he just needed to become a hero. He also didn't think he deserved the things given to him.

Cold-Hearted and Grim- He never had great manners, like he never said sorry, excuse me, basic etiquette like that. He never said sorry to his colleagues if he did something wrong or if he was simply rude to them for ''No Reason''. Well, No he didn't have manners but he never really bothered to be very polite. He had a reason for not being nice, he didn't want anyone to think that they could talk to him and be all buddy-buddy.

Haggard and Feeble- A lot of people comment about his features like the bags under his eyes or how he looks like he is dead or homeless. People also say he is weak and skinny, they say it looks weird or unnatural. He has bags under his eyes because he cant sleep a lot of the time and usually stays up 24/7. He is skinny because he thinks that his quirk doesn't require him to be a muscular, tough guy.

A Reject and unwanted- A lot of people think that he is a reject and will never be a really good hero. He is always picked last, people always laugh when someone gets him as a partner in class, nobody wants to talk to him at all besides some new people. He believed these the most, that's one of the stronger words that impact him a lot. He gets called this weekly, sometimes daily.

A Villain and a Fag- These are the words that impact him the most. He gets called a villain or worthless because he will obviously become something that he hates. A Fag...He likes Males and this school is not accepting at all, even the teachers tell him this, he thinks he is a mistake because of the way he thinks.

1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..and 10.

Ten words, Ten cuts. Those words are now forever engraved in his skin with each scar. Even the smallest of words could have the biggest effect. he looks at his forearms thinking how quick people are to put a label on someone without evidence or the persons own damn consent. This wasn't a new thing that he was doing, he has been depressed since he was 10 and started cutting at 11. So 2 / 3 years. He knew how to hide his cuts and scars, and he knew he had to be careful around his sister and parents.

He did wish he had one person, but not someone he knew in real life. Just then he got an idea. He swiftly took out some rubbing alcohol and dabbed it on his cuts, he winced but it helped stop the bleeding some and prevent infection, he put bandages on and a long-sleeved shirt after.

Right after, He grabbed his phone and opened the texting app on it. His only contacts were his 2 dads, sister, and some other people like Emi Fukukado and Nemuri Kayama. (Ms. Joke and Midnight) 5 In total.

He clicked the new message icon and typed in a random number, it was -Insert random number here-. Shinsou slowly started to type.

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S: Hi.

?: I think you have the wrong number man... 😓

S: No, I actually have no idea who you are. You could be a 40-year-old stalker for all I know.

?: Ha, what if I was?

S: I really don't give a fuck.

?: Hey! Language young man. 😡

S: ...

?: I'm kidding, You can call me Kam. (Pronounced Cam, like Camera)

S: Thank god. You can call me Shi. (Pronounced Shy)

S: Anyways, I should tell you why I'm texting you.

Kam: That'd be reasonable. 👍

S: I Felt like I needed someone to talk to. Someone that I didn't personally know and not a therapist. Anything but that really.

Kam: Oh! I feel ya, man. But I'd be glad to keep you company! 😄😄😄

S: Oh, I kind of expected you to say no. But thanks.

Kam: No thanks necessary! I'm glad to be able to talk to people.

S: Don't you have to sleep? it's late... (About 11:00 now)

Kam: Nah, My quirk kind of makes it hard, I have a lot of energy! ⚡️

S: Oh okay.

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Shinsou and ''Kam'' continued to talk the rest of the night. It put a genuine smile on his face thinking someone might care for him. But he did question why Kam put a lightning bolt by his message, maybe his quirk is related to that? Probably just means energy.

(989 words)

A.N Hello! I'm Author-Chan. First off I decided to write about such a sensitive topic because it helps progress the story. It is not at all meant to promote Cutting.

Thanks for reading this crappy story. <3