one for the road

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December 31, 2014

you're coming over tonight for our party and i'm so excited. the one thing that could make this night better is if you weren't bringing your stupid boyfriend. it should be me instead of him. maybe next year. please tell me next year it'll be me.

we talked briefly on the phone this morning and you sounded so excited. you got a hotel room and you're gonna stay here for at least two weeks. maybe i'll work up the courage to tell you i love you.

alex could not believe in just a few hours he'd finally be reunited with the love of his life. sure, it wasn't how he dreamed, but he was just happy to see miles again. he closed his journal and set it on his night stand. he felt confident about seeing miles again and he couldn't wait.

a couple hours later matt walked out of his room to see alex laying in the middle of the floor face down. in the background alex was listening to the age of the understatement, and matt could hear him sniffling like he had just been crying.

"alex?" matt asked after trying to decide if he should leave him or not. no answer. he knelt down and shook alex gently. "al? what's wrong mate?" alex flipped himself over to reveal his bloodshot eyes and his tear stained face. "matt i'm scared" he cried. "how come?" "what if miles doesn't like me anymore after tonight"

matt sighed. he hated when alex got like this and he thought alex was being irrational, but he also knew he had to be there for his friend because he loved miles and there was nothing he could do to stop him.

matt did his best to calm alex down and get him cleaned up. "come on then, the party is in less than an hour and you're not even dressed". he said, helping alex get you off the floor.

alex went into his room and tried to pick his best outfit to impress miles. he chose a blue leather jacket, a black t shirt, and some grey skinny jeans. he went into the bathroom and did his hair as he felt his confidence he had earlier return. he checked the time and he still had at least 30 minutes until people started arriving.

he decided to put on some music. after searching through his record collection he stumbled upon his copy of What's the Story Morning Glory? he slid one of the two records out of it's sleeve and a piece of paper fell out. he unfolded it and read the note.

dear al,

i noticed this record was missing from your collection so i went and bought it for you. i'm expecting lots of cuddle sessions to this one. i love you so much puppet.

miles x

alex smiled as he held the note. miles always got him random surprises when they lived together. memories started flooding back to him.

the year was 2012.

"hey alex?" miles asked, knocking on alex's door. alex opened his door to see miles frowning. "what's wrong mi?" "can i talk to you?" he asked, walking into the room and sitting down on the bed.

alex sat next to him and the boys sat together in silence for a while. alex could tell miles was anxious.

"ok so alex," miles started, sighing. "so recently i started seeing someone" alex felt his heart drop. "yeah?" "and well, he lives in the wirral and i'm moving home to be closer to him" alex's heart practically exploded. he was filled with angry. miles took his heart and stomped on it until it was in millions of tiny pieces. no. alex knew he should've said something. he was in love with miles. how was he supposed to know if alex always kept it a secret?

"oh" was all he managed to say. "i'm so sorry al, i'm really gonna miss you. but it's what seems right" miles said, a tear falling from his cheek.

the boys spent the next two weeks collecting all of miles' things from around the flat and packed them into boxes. miles didn't have much. his room always remained relatively empty as he tended to sleep in alex's bed or fall asleep on the couch before he could make it to his room.

miles offered to leave his bed so someone else could move in. in fact, miles left most of his furniture. he just took his clothes, records, and whatever other things he had laying around from the 3 years he lived there.

the last night had finally come. the next day miles would be leaving alex for some other guy who he loved more. the boys spent that night cuddling and listening to the oasis record that alex now held in his hand.

alex pushed those memories out of his head and placed the record on the turn table and put the needle down on the last track.

someday you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky

alex was instantly brought back to that night.

alex buried his head into miles' warm body as a tear run down his face. miles started singing along to the track.

but you and I, we live and die
the world's still spinning 'round, we don't know why

alex didn't want miles to leave. he held on tighter.

alex wouldn't let him leave again. not without a fight.