Summer of '07

First Kiss

Chapter 24

July 2007

~TRAVIS~

Obviously tonight was not my actual first kiss. Funny thing is, the night we all went skinny-dipping was when I literally had my first kiss. And now that I'm looking back, that wasn't very special... at all. Sure, I had a crush on Heather at one point but having to wait three years to have a drunken kiss with her felt kinda anticlimactic and didn't have the same effect it would have had if I had kissed her then. The crush had dissipated and it wasn't like she kissed me because she had feelings for me, but because she didn't want to exclude me from her little threesome fantasy. I know that she actually had feelings for Elijah, judging by what happens later, and that I was just being used to fulfill her fantasy of having a threesome with two guys at once. It's sad what happens after tonight, at least for me. Though I guess it was kinda my fault, to be honest.

"What's your biggest secret?!" Heather asked me drunkenly as we all chilled on the bed together.

"My biggest secret?" There was no way in hell that I was just gonna come out to the both of them right then and there, so I had to improvise. "I don't think I have one."

"Bullshit!" Heather exclaimed, raising the bottle of Svedka. "What is it?" She asked Elijah, as if he would know.

He just shrugged his shoulders.

"He's never told you?"

"Nah," Elijah said.

"Well, now's the time... tell your secrets to your besties!"

"I don't know... I guess, that I'm a virgin?"

"Not after tonight you won't be," Elijah mumbled in between gulps of the Bacardi in his hand.

"Well, we already know that! Tell us something we don't already know!"

"I guess... you were my first kiss, the night we went skinny-dipping."

"Aw, was I? How cute! Though you're like 17 bro, you should've had your first kiss long before now. How old were you Elijah, when you had your first kiss?"

"I don't know... 15, I guess?"

"Yeah, I was 14... lost my virginity at 15... and I remember right after that, I was so terrified that I was gonna get pregnant, even though he used protection. Obviously I wasn't emotionally ready... but that's okay because my second time was a lot better. I did it with Elijah here, and I felt a lot more confident. Hopefully, you'll feel good about it tonight and won't freak about getting me pregnant. Remember I'm on the pill, so you're free to wear a condom if you want. It's funner without it, but if you want to be extra careful, then I'd say to go ahead and use it. It's entirely up to you." Um, okay... thanks for that.

I nodded my head in agreement as I grabbed one of the condoms from the bed to examine the wrapper, contemplating whether to trust her or not with this, considering she didn't exactly seem like the most trustworthy girl. I just wanted to have sex and didn't want to deal with whatever repercussions came after it so that's why it was just easier to blow everything off and go with whatever when the time came. And by that point in the night, I think we were getting pretty close to starting. We just had one more step to get through.

"Alright so, I still haven't gotten to see that kiss between you two, let's go, chop chop!"

"Ugh!" Elijah groaned loudly in frustration.

"Come on, it won't be that bad," I said to Elijah, trying so hard not to show my excitement over the situation.

"No, that guy called us faggots earlier—"