Lola Electra's Diary

The Date

16th May 2014,

I went on a date with David today! We went on a long walk through the woods and I had such a great time. I was really giggly at first though, most probably from nerves and maybe because of the fact that I was in shock that I was on a date with David. I never really liked David in school, he had such a twatish attitude about him and was always getting into fights. I'm the complete opposite you see, in school I was a straight A grade student and extremely shy. I liked to keep myself to myself so therefore would never have associated myself with him back in school. But there I was today, walking with him and I had a lot fun.

We walked for about 2 hours, discussing what we were doing with our lives now. He's in college doing gaming and is hoping to go to University to continue doing gaming. I'm currently in Sixth form studying A levels and hope to become a journalist one day. I'm predicted straight A's and he told me that if I get the grades, he'll buy me a meerkat teddy from comparethemeerkat.com. I love those adverts. 

I found him to be weirdly good looking. I don't know what it is about him. I think it's his freckles, I've always had a thing for freckles. Halfway through the walk, we had to walk up quite a steep hill and he asked whether I want to hold his hand and I stupidly said 'no'. Damn my shyness. Anyway, after about hours we sat down on a wooden bench that was placed in the middle of the woods and continued speaking about our lives. David sat on the opposite side of the bench to me and I found this quite humorous so I made a joke about how I must be making him nervous so he moved a bit closer to me. The distance he sat from me panicked me a bit though, my mind was racing with thoughts that he may have regretted coming on the date with me. However, the awkwardness soon disappeared when we found that a herd of cows were watching us over the gate as for some reason we both found this absolutly hilarious. The cows were just mooing (of course), maybe they were rooting me on to kiss him. The cows soon disappeared though and we were left all alone and in seconds we were kissing! I probably wasn't very good though since I have not kissed anybody in about 2 years. It's weird because even though I was in school with him, thinking about it I've really only known him for a day and here I am kissing him. However when we stopped, I awkwardly said 'so does this mean we're going out?' How stupid. I'm 18 years old and as well as looking 12, I sound like I'm 12 too. He responded nicely though saying 'Might as well, It's inevitable we'd end up together anyway.'

So I, Lola Electra, now have a boyfriend! My third one to date. My last two relationships have been complete failures. When I was 15 I got my first boyfriend, his name was Stan and he wasn't all that attractive, he had glasses, spots and his personality was awful with his constant weed smoking and 'all the girls want me' attitude. Thinking about it, I probably only went out with him because I was 15 and never had a boyfriend and just wanted to experience what it was like. I wish I never now though since he cheated on me 5 times and forced me to do a lot of things. He had a foot fetish, and I wasn't all that comfortable with using my feet to pleasure somebody but I did it, to my regret. I now can't bare to walk round the house without socks, I'm scarred. I've literally tried to stop thinking about everything I ever did with him because he was in to some weird things - spitting and being dominated. Don't get me wrong, I respect every person has their own turn ons but as a 15 year old, I was just really uncomfortable and I most definitely was not the girl for him.

I had my second boyfriend when I was 16 and his name was Jake and he was so gorgeous with his blonde, longish hair and blue eyes. We went to prom together and always went on cinema dates. However, we really didn't click well. I loved that he was shy and really nice but after a while he started to become obsessed with his weight and it changed his personality completely. Being on a diet of haribo's and energy drinks caused him to become moody and distant and he never wanted to see me. I always asked if he wanted to meet up but he always had an excuse. Then one night, whilst the Olympics was on, he hadn't messaged me all night until 11pm just to tell me that this girl had messaged him telling him he's gorgeous and that they're speaking about the Olympics. So great, he ignores me for another girl. Then we meet up the next day and he tells me he's going camping with boys and girls but I'm not invited. Inevitably we broke up and I haven't spoke to him in 2 years. Partially because he started saying some really horrible things about me, such as my fake tan makes me look like I've rolled around in mud, I apparently really wanted to give him a blowjob and one of his friends sent me a really horrible message basically telling me how ugly I am. Charmer.

Needless to say, I haven't had the best experiences with relationships but I really believe and hope I can make it work with David since he seems so friendly. I really do hope.

Night night x