Dear Zayn (Ziall Horlik) *HIATUS*

28.

*Niall POV*

I laid there until he punched my shoulder.

"Niall. Tell me." He said.

"Can you just leave I have to get up in the morning." He said.

"I wish you'd just tell me the problem." He said.

I blew my gasket then.

"You. You are the problem. I want to kiss you. I want to fuck you, or you fuck me. I want to cuddle with you and knowing it's okay. I want to go on dates with you. I want to lay on your chest and watch Netflix all day. I want to visit your family with you and you with me. I want me to call me your boyfriend and vice versa. I want everything to be alright between us, without me feeling like a home wrecker.

I don't want you and Perrie to be threw because of me, but I don't want you to see you with Perrie. You are the problem. You are not helping either. Kissing me and telling me sweet nothings. I know you're just trying to be there for me but I'm not seeing it that way Zayn. I don't and that's why I want you to stop. Just stop caring. You're not gay, and I want you to be. I want you to be but you can't so don't care.

Do not please. You're hurting me by me hurting myself. And I'm getting my hopes up. But at the end you're straight and I'm gay. I'm hurting myself feigning over a straight guy and you're hurting me more with your actions that you wouldn't mind doing with a straight person.

And that's what I think I am to you. A straight single meat head friend. But no I'm not. I am a gentle caring gay guy, things you do with your other friends can't be done with me and it's not because I take things to serious. It just so happen that my gaydar is going off and it's so fucking wrong. Because you're fucking straight. You like girls and vaginas but I'm reading you wrong. I'm reading you wrong and I'm hurting myself if I already haven't mentioned. So please don't give two fucks about me. And I'm not gonna grantee I'll be fine because I probably won't. But my life shall be perfectly fine without you which I'm probably wrong but honestly I'm looking out for myself and what's best for me. " I said and my eyes closed tightly.

And at that moment. Specifically at that moment everything for me froze everything. Now I'm going to lose my best friend that what comes next doesn't it? You snap and tell people to not care and they do. They stop giving a shit about you and everything. You push them away and they stay away to make sure they don't get pushed again. I don't know? I've never had a friend relationship besides Eleanor and my 2 intimate relationships.

"Niall." He said softly.

I'm crying now. "Please leave." I said and I felt him get up.

"I'll leave. But don't think I'm not coming back." He said and he left.

I cried. I called Eleanor.

"Yeah what's up Niall." She said.

"Come home now." I cried.

"Wait what's wrong." She said panicked.

*Eleanor's POV* (Bonus)

"Home. Now." Niall said and hung up.

He sounded like he was crying. No, no, no.

I hopped off the couch. "Harry, Louis I have to go."I said rushing to put on my jacket.

"Why?" They both said in unison.

"Niall." Was all I said.

"What about him?" Harry asked.

"I don't know. All I know is I need to get home now." I said putting on my shoes and grabbing my keys.

"What's wrong with him?" Lou asked.

"He's crying. And I need to go. Bye." I said slamming the door behind me.

I don't men to be rude or anything but my best friend needs me. Right now and I'd drop the world for him.

I get in my car. I get there fast. Okay so I sped sue me. I unlock the door in my house and ran into Niall's room.

I saw him in a ball crying and I ran over to him.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

He explained to me while I wipped his tears away and told him everything's was okay.

Harry and Niall broke up and had the nerve to ask me was he okay. No because you broke his damn heart.

He cried himself to sleep. I took the liberty and calling Leslie and telling her Niall won't be in for a couple of days.

She replied professionally and of course sleepily that she'd hold the fort down then I thanked her and we said our goodbyes.

I laid next to Niall and combed through his hair with my fingers and hummed until I got a phone call from Louis.

"Hey love." He said and I blushed.

"Hey." I said.

"Is Niall okay?" I then heard Harry asked.

"Listen here fuck face. You don't have the right to ask that. You have no fucking right but by the way yes he's fucking amazing just cried his ass to sleep over here, now put me back on the phone with Louis before I wake Niall up screaming at you." I said.

I cleared my throat. "So is Niall okay though really? And why are you mad at Harry?" Louis asked.

"Because Harry broke up with Niall but that's really not why Niall was feeling bad. But yeah he's okay now I guess." I said.

"Harry what?!" He asked. "You broke up with Niall? Why? Oh shut the fuck up! Niall is freaking sensitive, kind and I bet a freak so what made you even?!"

I heard in the back but then I just hung up.

I went back to combing my hands through his hair until nialls phone got a call. It was Zayn and so I answered it.

"Hello?" I said.

"Eleanor?" He asked.

"Yes now what?" I asked

"Can I speak to Niall?" He questioned.

"No. He's sleep but you know what Zayn. Don't give up on him. Don't walk away from him. I know you're not gay but please stay with him. Trust me he's fought off his feelings this long he will continue to. Stop being so touchy. He loves you and you love him. So stop. For him. I know you only see him as a guy friend but remember he's gay. When you slap his butt, kiss his cheek, or cuddle him remember he isn't Harry, Lou or Liam. He is Niall. Sensitive, adorable, bottled-up-feelings Niall and so remember that. " I said.

"I know. I'm not giving up on Nialler. I'm not walking away from him and I won't. If it takes me to stop being touchy feely with him to stay friend I will stop because I want to care about him." he said and I swear I wanted to cry how sweet that was.

"Thank you sooo much. Niall's starting to stir so I have to go." I said.

"Alright night." He said.

"Night." I said.

I hung up and played on Niall's hair humming trying to get him to stop moving around so much.