Dear Zayn (Ziall Horlik) *HIATUS*

41.

*Zayn's POV*

I was sitting there, Perrie was on my lap I had my hand on her thigh and she was telling me a story.

"So I told Jada to go for it because he's not with someone but that'd be really weird don't you think?" She asked and I'm so glad I was paying attention this time so she wouldn't hit me.

"Well it depends on who it is." I told her and she looked at me.

"It's Niall remember when I said high school boyfriend? Well yeah I told her to go for it. Wasn't that great advice." She said smiling.

"No not really. She dumped him in high school. Niall told me he was really embarrassed by that plus Niall is gay." I told her and she thought for a while.

"But they'd be awfully cute. Plus if he's always liked Jada he still likes her. Might even loves her. " she said and I cringed a bit but didn't let Perrie see me because he told he still does.

"Yeah maybe but when Niall was telling me about that he seemed pretty broken about that. Once a person breaks you it hard for you to let them back in especially when you loved that person." I said slowly.

Oh my god that's what's going on with Niall and me. He loves me but I kind of broke him plus I..... Hit him. I don't know where that came from. I guess I was being vain at the moment while I kept calling him selfish. I fucked up.

"Wow." She said.

"Yeah wow." I said.

"That was real deep Zayn. Can we go get some ice cream?" She asked.

"Yeah." I told her and I snaked her bottom and she jumped off of me smiling.

We got up and went to the ice cream parlor. Surprisingly I saw Niall there. But not so surprising because he likes ice cream more than others.

Me and Perrie got our ice cream and sat down on the other side of the parlor than Niall. I saw Harry then come in. Oh no. He got his ice cream then looked for a place to sit. He came over to us and smiled.

"Hey Zayn, Perrie." He said.

"Hey Harry." Perrie said.

"Hey Harry how are ya doing." I asked him.

"Good I'm gonna go sit down. Don't want to intrude." He said and walked away.

I saw him sit over on Niall's side and then I saw Niall get up and sit over by Harry. They exchanged a few words before they shook hands then got up to hug. They made up? Does that mean they'll be back together? They don't need to be back together they already broke up why would they get back together? I saw Harry kiss Niall's cheek and Niall sit down blushing. This isn't supposed to happen.

I hope there not getting back together. Because Niall will just be heart broken again and I won't be there for him to cry to me. That doesn't really affect me but still. Sad people make me upset.

I went back to eating my ice cream and seen the boys talking. Harry looked at him with adoration and I didn't like it. Why would he break Niall's heart, treat him like shit, be the main reason why he showed up at my door step covered in blood? If he still loves him. But Harry would be more of a man than I ever would.

When he was with Niall he took him places and didn't care about the type of publicity he got for it. But then had a sudden toll of disinterest. Then I started liking Niall and well I cared about everyone and how people would see me over his feelings, and I even hit him. I am a terrible person.