My Accidental Death

Chapter 3

Walking away from Nikki was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do but I know it's what I needed. I guess it took me dying to see what was really going on behind closed doors, literally...

Once I got to the street I decided to go visit Becca. Before I could take two steps a blinding light white pretty much knocked me on my ass. What the actual fuck...

"Anastasia..." a sweet voice drifted from the blinding white light.

This is way to much like a movie I thought as I stood up and walked toward the light.

"God? Is that you?" I whispered thoroughly freaked out.

"Nope not god just your friendly neighborhood reaper" the voice wasn't nearly as sweet now but more sarcastic. The blinding light faded to a dull shine and a woman dressed in all black stepped towards me. "Come on child it's time to go".

"Go? Go where exactly?" I said watching this woman carefully as if she was going to attack any minute.

"The after life honey, your time on this earth has run out and now you will live eternally in heaven" she extended her hand towards me as she talked, waiting for me to take it and follow her.

"I can't... I can't leave yet, I haven't even checked on my family" I explained.

"Honey you only get one chance to leave. After I go back through the door separating the worlds you won't get another chance, you'll be stuck in limbo forever. I know you're worried about your family but they will be fine. Yes they'll be in pain for awhile but they will get through it"

A million different thoughts ran through my head at that moment. Should I stay in limbo and watch over my friends and family or should I leave and enjoy the after life? 

This was easily the biggest decision I have ever had to make. 

After a few moments had passed I knew there was only one true answer. I had to stay. Even if my family couldn't see me I needed to be there. I wanted to watch Reese grow up and if that meant being here long after my family is gone then so be it.

"I can't leave, I hope you understand"

"I do, but I hope you know what your doing by staying" The light was bright again for a few moments before it faded out and the woman disappeared. In all honesty I had no idea what I was doing but I knew it was the right decision. At least I think it is.

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I began the long walk home as the sun went down still contemplating whether or not I had made the right choice. I would have to watch my loved ones grow up and forget about me. Watch my little brother grow up and get married. I would never be able to spoil his children. I would never get to have children of my own... 

Before I realized it I was standing in front of my house my feet directly in front of the curb. There were at least five cars in the driveway and only two belonged to us. I could recognize my grandmas, aunts, and cousins cars. 

By now I'm sure they've all heard, why else would they all be here. I walked right through the front door and was met with most of my family crying, baking, or just standing around staring into space. 

My heart sank to the very bottom of my stomach as I took in every face etched with pain. I ran to my room to see my younger brother asleep on my bed, his eyes red and puffy, and his small hands wrapped around my favorite stuffed animal.

 I heard the floorboards creak and I saw my mother standing in the doorway watching over him. I watched as she walked across the floor and curled up behind my little brother wrapping her arms around him, careful not to wake him. I wished I could tell them I loved them one last time. I felt a rage bubbling up inside me, this was all Evan's fault. 

If he wasn't driving so fast, if he was paying attention I wouldn't be dead right now. My family wouldn't be in so much pain. My little brother wouldn't have to grow up without me. Evan took everything from me and now I'm going to take everything from him.