it's what I've been feeling for the past few days as these negatives thoughts keep increasing.
i feel like it's not fair for me to suffer , well not really suffer but feel this way without my family or friends knowing
i want them to know, I want to feel like I'm not in this alone because I know they would try to help me but I'm scared that they wouldn't understand because I don't even understand what the fuck is going on in my brain.
It's like this sad switch was turned on and now I can't turn it completely off.
I've only told one person and I'm glad I did because I trust her but I don't feel satisfied or well knowing that the people I love and care about don't have a clue what's happening to me.
I feel like I sound selfish sometimes but I just want to tell them.
but i can't
at least not now
