summer is supposed to be a fun filled two months before school starts up again
but my summer was so gloomy and just sad.
there were barely days where I felt the sunshine on me, mentally.
this summer has so many downs and few ups but I think the worst thing I've struggled with is my body image.
I didn't take care of myself that well during those last few months after sports ended for me and I hate myself for that.
Back to school shopping was so hard for me because pants wouldn't fit me right or I just hated how certain shirts looked on me.
i wish I had smaller thighs and a flatter stomach.
i wish I took care of myself better.
and the worst part was when i went to the doctor and got weighted.
I had gained more than 12lbs recently and I hate it.
I hate me.
