Horrible poems

Im tired

I'm tired of the screams I cry. I'm tired of the tears that roll down my face. I'm tired of the thoughts the consume me. I'm tired of crying for help bit no one hearing. I want to change my life but I'm tired of changing for others. I want to be happy and I'm tired or being so sad. I want to be me but I'm tired of being judged. I'm tired of faking a smile juat so I'm not judged more. I'm tired of bwing but losing that too. I'm tired of losing my voice the once was used to speak out with. I' m tired of falling and no one being there. I'm tired of being tired and being told I have not tried. I'm tired of pickinf myself up just be kicked down again. I'm of allod these things but no one is listening to a word I say. I'm tired of it being all my fault when you have affected on me too. I'm tired of being called a qutier when all I do is try. I'm tired of being called a surviver when I am still suffering throught it now. I'm tired of trying to be perfect in your eyes because I'm a human too. I'm tired of faking happiness because if I'm sad its said only for "attention". I'm tired of being there for everyone but no on is ever there for me. I'm tired of falling but it's all I can do. I'm tired of the words I am called even though I'm called them all. I'm tired of being human because I'm judged for that too. I'm tired of caring but if I don't Im in troubke for that too. I'm tired of listening but im forced to. I'm tired of this world but I can't escape it. I'm tiredof being told to die even though you say live through it. I'm tired of the sad I write but I can't write happiness if I don't have it. I'm tired of hiding how I feel but I can't speaking mind with the comments. I'm tired of being silent because I have words to say too. I'm tired of the shadows because I want to shine too. I'm tired of being kicked down because I want to stand too.  I'm tired of the score board in my head because I want to eat without the worry of being fat. I'm tired of the restless nughts because I'm scared of what the next day will bring. I'n tired of the constant fear to live but I don't want to die. I'm tired of wanting to escape thise world and all the bad it brings but the only way to is to die. I'm tired of always writing and never sharing it because I can't share it without the judgement or hate. I'm tired of the judgement but I can't avoid it. I'm tired of the hate but we all hate something. I'm tired of the pain can't get rid of it. I'm tired of no one being there when I need them but I am there for everyone everyday. I'm tired of being used just so much rejection and I know I should be used to it. I'm tired of the bullies but they hate when you say something back. I'm tired of how phomes control us and we listen. I'm tired of how the world revolves aroumd social media and you can't talk to someone without them  concerned about there phone. I'm tired of always being sorry for everything but I feel like everything is my fault. I'm tired of being cat called but I can't stop them. I'm tired of loving other for who they are but being hated for who I am. I'm tired... I'm tired... I'm tired... Can't you tel I'm tired.