"Ok guys shushy, tasia why were you over thinking about triton?" Sherone asked. I hate being asked this in all honesty because well I dont want them to think anymore awful of him as they already do because of my constant complaining and even tho he lacks in certain areas I can see great things that he can accomplish if only he wasn't the way he was. " well I kinda lied to him couple minutes well more like seconds before u guys arrived I told him I was going out with you guys" I answered "but why would you tell him that when you know your having a sleep over?" Anna asked. I sighed I know I dont have to answer Anna's question because she already knows the answer. I looked at her "because I really didn't want him calling me back tonight and he's really jealous he would be upset that Jacob and Daniel are here staying under the same roof as me." "But a mean we are here as well so why would he be jealous?" Kimony asked " its just how he is. He doesn't trust people and if it were me I wouldnt care if there one millions guys and just two girls I wouldnt want them under the same roof either" I said. "Anastasia your relationship is toxic a mean he's not all that respectful, he's always busy which yea I understand going to school in the day and working in the night he'll b tired but when he gets the chance he shouldnt just play games he should talk to you. He has a hard time saying why he loves you if he does and I dont care if he's not use to it its been a year since y'all are together he should be use to it by now there are many seconds and minutes in a day and a lot of days and months in a year. Its an excuse for him I believe he ain't use to it but like come on its a year and what two months?" "Four " I corrected "even worse he should know why he loves you and knows why he wants you to stay. He sounds like a bad person I dont really like him and I dont know him all that well" sherone said. I know she is right but I still look for excuses to make him look like a great person even tho I already painted a horrible picture it wasnt my intentions but I couldnt help it. I had to ramble and talk about it. I hate this I should just end the relationship because I know I dont love him anymore. "Tasia?" Anna called and I turned to look at her "I know how it feels wanting to see a person who means a lot to you be someone better because you know what he is capable of doing but the truth is all you can do is pray and let God be God of the situation and stop trying to be the savior. You can't save anybody God can and if your not the person he's gonna use to reach triton there is nothing you can do about it ok sugar plum". Anna's words were true and they were comfortingly comforting she gave me a new understanding to things some of which I already came to terms with. "Besides I dont think God would give u such a burden to help bring when you your self is young in Christ he's trying to build you not destroy you my love" Jacob said. At this point they all gathered around me giving me their honest opinion on the situation. They even told me it was wrong to lie to him. Very wrong because he's still my boyfriend and he deserves the truth. "Well since counseling session is over" Leyla said while giggling. "I think its time for devotion and prayer"
