July 15, 2019
Dear whoever you really are,
I used to think you had a chance, all you had to do was leave the pain behind, but I was wrong. I've said it a million times, people never change... I don't know why I thought you were different. You'll never stop cutting. You'll never stop using. You'll never stop chasing people away. You keep crying, wondering where everyone goes but you don't wanna see it. Everyone is running from you. All you do is blame everyone around you thinking it's anyone but you, running away, crying for help from new people but honestly, it is you. You are the one who put yourself in the position to be raped, Ben just happened to be the one. You are the one who chose to keep using, Leonard was just the plug. You are the one who messed up, Dawna was just the one trying to keep you from yourself. I can go on forever but you won't listen. It's not anyone else's fault, no matter how you slice it. You did these things to yourself and no one else is to blame. Whether you wanna take it to the grave now or later is not my problem.
Sincerely,
Yourself
