I don't even know where to start. Every single second of that day was unbelievable. In front of me there was the person I've been dreaming of for months. You might not even understand it. So I'm gonna start. I'm Martina and I'm gonna tell you about the love of my fucking life. Or at least what I wish it'll happen in my future since I love him so much. So I'm 21 years old and my dream is becoming an interpreter but also a singer. About one week ago I was at a bar drinking a glass of cola cause I don't like alcohol. It was midnight I guess. I was just texting my friend, she was worried about me cause it wasn't a good day at all. I was feeling dizzy and empty. Don't misunderstand me u guys, I wasn't hungry, I just felt like something was missing. Well, the truth is I didn't like my life. It was just a huge hole of darkness. A boy walked in. I quickly turned around. I don't even know why I did that, I just did. I felt like it was right. "Omfg what the hell" that's what I thought. My heart was racing cause he was directly walking in my direction. I was like:"oh shit, am I hot?" I even asked the barman how I looked. That guy stepped right next to me and asked the barman for some cola. I wanted to know him better. I felt so attracted to him. So I stopped staring at him and opened my mouth to say:"I'm Martina and I don't drink either lol. That's funny I mean why are we even at a bar?" I started laughing cause I realized it was the stupidest thing I could ever tell him. Luckily he laughed too. He said:"yeah you damn right ahahah! I'm Alberto, I like your name a lot;) sounds like a princess' name. Are u a princess?" Okay I was barely alive after he said that. My heart was beating so fast and the only thing that came to my mind was: "omg I wanna be your princess. Make me fuckin' yours my Prince Charming". It might sound like one of those disney stories. It kinda was. But I responded in this way:" a princess? Me? I'm not even Cinderella's fucking shoe". Ha laughed and said:" what are u fucking talking about? You're so damn beautiful, better then some stupid princesses who don't ever curse". I was immediately like:" oh thanks but you are beautiful, I like u a lot... I mean...ehm..uh..idk..u are..cute...I guess.." okay I was about to faint you guys. "Uh you think I'm cute? We should hang out sometimes! I can't let you go principessa". We're both Italians and "principessa" means princess. I was his principessa. Couldn't be happier. Then he asked me for my number and I gave it to him. He also said:"why don't we get out of here? Are u down for a romantic walk at the Cinnamon Park?" And I said :"omg yes I would love to walk beside you". he started laughing again. He touched my hand and held it. He grabbed me by my hips right when we got out of the bar. We made eye contact for a while. He said:"you are a real princess". I was looking at his eyes and then at his lips. I really was intended to kiss him. But i looked away and I started walking on the opposite way. It was too early and I wanted to go to that park. He followed me. We started talking bout our lives. I told him I was 21 so he responded he was 22 and then the conversation started when I told him I wanted to become and interpreter and a singer and he told me he was an opera singer. I was shocked cause I was too. So we started singing and then I really went in belting out Ariana Grande's Thinking bout you. That's my fav song ever. He looked surprised cause sopranos don't normally do this so I told him my mom is a vocal coach and she told me how to sing using my mixed and chest voice. Sopranos use head voice. I also told him I wanted to be like a pop diva with R&B influences. We finally arrived to the Cinnamon Park. At 2 am. We walked through trees and grass and then we found the perfect place to have some privacy. There was a little wall behind me. He started getting closer and closer til I was touching the wall with my back. He grabbed my hips again but this time he looked like he wanted to eat me. I loved how hot and serious he seemed. I was sweating, I wanted to know how his lips would have tasted. I was so nervous, we were waiting for that moment the whole night. And baaaaaammmmm. He put his lips on mine. It felt so damn right. Then we started kissing and he decided to use his tongue and told me he really wanted me. Okay we basically made out. I don't know why but I wasn't feeling like I only wanted him. I was and am def in love. He is my soulmate. It sounds like I'm rushing but I've never felt that way with any of my past boyfriends. He also put his lips on my neck. I wasn't expecting that. My breath got deeper. He felt I was shaking so he told me he wasn't gonna go anywhere farther. He just wanted to prove me he really liked me a lot. He was like" how stupid am i ?! I haven't even told you how gorgeous you are. From your body to your personality and obviously your voice. I don't wanna let you go mama". I was like" I can't tell you how much I needed this to happen. Baby please I wanna know you're here for me, I wanna feel your presence. My parents both died when I was 11 and I'm alone now. My ex also died last year. He overdosed. I was a substance abuser and he was too. I was cause I have borderline personality disorder, a mental condition made of impulsivity, fear of abandonment, anger issues and shit like that. I had suicidal thoughts since my parents' death. I also self-harmed. But I'm doing well now. I don't do that anymore". He was literally crying his eyes out when I told him bout my past. He just said something that I will always remember:"you are perfect no matter how damaged you are. I can't be your parent and I can't give you the love they were supposed to give you but I promise that if I'll be the one for you, I will love you til the day I die and I will be there if you'll need to cry, laugh..you can even hit me but the point is I will always love you. You are the only one for me, principessa". I got so emotional and cried ruining my makeup. He took me to his house, he didn't want me to sleep alone since I was so emotionally unstable that night. It wasn't even night still, it was 4:30 am. His house is so awesome. I could smell his perfume in there. I went into the bathroom and changed my clothes. I just took off the denim dress I was wearing and put on a white sweater he gave me to go sleeping. Oh and I also washed my face cause I looked worse than a panda. At least they are cute. I took my glasses off and went to bed. He was already waiting for me. He kissed me on the cheek and we watched Stranger Things on Netflix. You thought I was gonna say we netflix&chilled you idiots. We didn't. We were just hugging, cuddling and kissing. It was the best time of my life. I felt protected and important. Then he said "i love you baby" and I said "I do more". Thank God, I found my soulmate.
