Pursuit of Happiness-Grayson Dolan☀️🌴

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June

I never expected myself to be the jealous type and I try not to be because it just ends badly and it such a heavy thing to feel.

Especially in relationships.

Even with Gray hanging out so much suddenly with Emma Chamberlain I haven't gotten jealous once since I shouldn't be. I've only met Emma once and she seemed nice enough, just not the type of girl I'd personally hang out with. I prefer my friends to be a little less loud and not so over the top with scream laughing at everything and anything.

She and Gray seem to get along pretty well though and so they've been spending some time together in the 'squad' with Ethan and James. They're just friends, friends who help each other out a lot in their careers so why should I be territorial?

Well, its not just the fact they're hanging out...its what the fans do with the fact that they're hanging out.

Gray and I haven't gone public with our relationship yet, I don't even know if yet is right to say as he may not suggest going public because he 'wants to protect me' but anyway, our relationship is a secret none the less.

So since his fans don't know that he and I are in a relationship and the only girl they've seen him with straight up is Emma, a ship has started to form, called Gremma.

It started out with the first collabs, tweets about the exchange of looks between the two that got blown out of proportion. Then there were those little video edits you find on Instagram and twitter. Now the ship has been established and even though I've tried to let it not, its starting to get to me.

It makes me wish Gray wanted to go public so we could be in each other's videos and exchange cute looks that the fans use in edits.

It sounds so fucking dumb but thats just how I feel.

I don't want thousands of people shipping my man with another girl.

I wait for Gray to come over to my place, laying on my sofa and scrolling through Instagram where I see another edit of my boyfriend and Emma. I get a sour taste in my mouth looking at the filtered shots of Gray looking at her with heart emojis edited over them. Seriously?

I'm thankfully distracted by a knock on the door so I throw my phone down and walk over to open it.

Its Grayson, standing there with flowers and a pizza, classic tumblr boyfriend material.

"Hey beautiful" he smiles at me and comes in for a kiss.

"Hi handsome" I say back and pinch his cheek lovingly.

I take the flowers from him and give him another kiss, "thank you baby...you're so sweet".

"Just for my girl" he tells me and places the pizza on the kitchen island "I feel like I haven't seen you enough this week, with filming and everything".

And hanging out with your new squad and creating Gremma content.

I attempt to get the thought out of my mind by wrapping my arms around his body from behind and kissing his shoulder and inhaling his sweet scent.

He looks at my face resting against him and smiles at me, "you're too cute you know that? how'd I get so lucky?".

I shrug playfully, "you are Grayson Dolan so getting any girl isn't that hard".

He turns around to face me and pulls me into his arms so our bodies are touching. He rests his forehead against mine and looks down from my eyes to my lips and then back up, a glow in his gaze.

"Yeah well you're not just any girl babe" he whispers and presses a light kiss to my lips "you know you're more than that".

Those sweet words make me feel a little bad about letting fans' assumptions and silly little ship edits affect me so much. My feelings must be obvious to see because Gray starts to pout at my expression and strokes my cheek with his thumb.