Prologue

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Tamar

            I was in my car ready to leave but for some reason I couldn't find the courage to start it up and drive off

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I was in my car ready to leave but for some reason I couldn't find the courage to start it up and drive off. Just then, he came out running to try and beg for forgiveness like he's done I don't know how many times before. I was so done with dealing with that shit, for one: 'That's Not Cute' and two, all this damn back and forth is 'Team Too Much'. That was all I needed to start up my car, wipe my tears and go. Halfway down the road of our street, the radio station on begins to mention me so I turn it up a little bit and hear them say how I'm on fire and since my Tamartians have been begging for two of my songs back to back they were finally getting what they want. I smile at that thinking what could they be playing this time of night. It's almost 4 am for crying out loud! My question was answered when I hear 'Love and War' begin, the motto for my man and I. Just hearing this song made me begin to cry again and start to turn my car back around to work this out.

I want to so badly but I get to our house realizing that I can't and won't do this anymore! Something in this relationship has to change if it's going to work. With that, I drive past like I never even thought of going back and my new single 'All The Way Home' began making me stop the car in its tracks after pulling over and bursting into tears. I wrote this song because that shit is exactly what always happens. No matter what I'm thinking of him and taking a drive to clear my head always put me in the same position running back home to him. When the song finally ended, I hear: "Since we just listened to Tamar, how about we listen to her man too? They are the ultimate RnB couple right now after all! So be happy Team Breezy, here's two of your fave songs by the one and only Chris Brown." That's expected; of course when we're having issues this shit has to happen! O well I can't and I won't give in this time! Looks like I'll just turn on my I-pod and put 'All The Way Home' on repeat for the moment, and drive while reminiscing on how I got here hoping it will change.

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