Broken Mate

Chapter 4

"They call it suicide, I call it a war in which I'm loosing." ~ I'm not sure who.

Lea's POV

I had just gone through a particularly gruesome beating by my 'master' when we both heard a howl. We both knew that we were currently under attack. I turned to look at Alpha Kia, not letting my eyes reach his and waited.

I knew if I moved anywhere or asked a question that I would be beaten again even worse after he sorted out the attack. He grabbed me by my neck and dragged me out of his room in the pack house. We were heading towards the torcher chamber which is where you receive the biggest beatings and often meet death.

I had seen people go in there and knew that they were starved, beaten, raped and never allowed any water. They were injected with wolfsbane and handcuffed with silver. If any emerged, they were often missing multiple limbs, or carried out, dead, to be burnt.

I hope that this is the ending, at this point I welcome death with open arms. To be free from the pain of this life, having to be a slave, a servant, a mate to the alpha, his "luna".

I wish mates were kind and loving, I wish my parents didn't look so much like a fairytale. I wish my life was different. I wish I wasn't alive...

"Hurry up you lazy, good for nothing brat!" My master all but screams at me.

I try to urge my feet forward faster, but just end up crashing to the ground. I know at this point that my body is shutting down, Jessie has helped to keep me alive this long, but with all the new wolfsbane that has been added to my system, she has been cut off from me as well. Everyone that I have ever cared about has left me, but I guess its just because what they say is true, I'm just a worthless, weak person who's only purpose is to relieve anger on.

As we reach the end room of the torcher chamber, master locks me on the dirty bed, and chains me with silver handcuffs. He then stabs a knife through my leg and slices both the arms. I was already so numb that they felt like a gentle slap.

"That should stop you from escaping you absolute nuisance. And when I come back, you are going to wish you were never born!" He snarls with an evil smirk on his face.

What he doesn't know is that I already do.

I will the darkness to come collect me, to say its time to go, and when it does I welcome it with open arms.

I see the meadows, the ones I always played in. They are luscious and green, the field filled with wonderful smelling flowers. I see my mum and dad, and run up to them. I must be in heaven... I finally died! "Mum, dad, I can't believe we are finally here together again." I sobbed clutching their shirts and breathed it their unique scents. I'm so happy to be home again!

"Darling, we cannot stay long, the moon goddess sent us here to send you a message from here. She said that you are special and are going to accomplish great things, but you need to go back. You need to have an open mind and be smart. You will be fine, I love you." My mum said with a small smile.

"No, NO, please don't send me back there, its horrible and filled with pain!" I choked out.

"Dear, your mother and I want you to be happy, but we cannot go against the moon goddess, and besides your not even dead, just unconscious so you have to wake up, you need to find the will to do it. I love you dear." My dad patted my hair like he uses to when I was a little girl.

They disappear and I'm left in darkness once more. My body feels heavy, my eyes glued shut but when I strain a bit, I hear the beeping of a hospital machine.

Darnit, can't they stop taking me here to fix me, just to go and try to kill me the day after. I cannot stand this cycle. I used to be strong, I used to be brave. I uses to fight back against master and beg him to stop, now I'm weak, I'm broken beyond repair.

I uses to fight against this darkness, having hope that tomorrow will be better than today, but now I know better, there is no point in trying anymore. I cannot live happily anyway.

There is no love in life, there is no fairy tale endings. Life is just a ride, who can hold on the longest without screaming and breaking down is the winner.

I can almost feel peace, I know what they told me, but I'm not strong enough anymore, I'm tired of fighting. I just want to give up. As I thought that, the beeping increases in speed and I hear distant yelling. I try to ignore it and it fades away, just like hopefully I will.

Another Chapter done. Yay!! This is from Lea's POV. I seriously want to know who you guys like better so far. This chapter is dedicated to @Poetry81 for voting for my story, a big THANK YOU! Anyways, hope you like the chapter my lovelies xoxox.