Bonafide Notion

2019

Lately, I seemed empty.
Nothing went on my mind,
Filling up with unnecessary thoughts,
With fake smiles.

Last year was so tough.
Until now, it sucks.
Many problems I got with my family,
I just don't know what to do, really.

I may not be as responsible as others,
Not as worthy in their eyes,
But I learned to value myself to be still,
I only have myself since the beginning.

It's 2019 yet, they're acting like some immature people out there.
They only pay attention to your wrong doings,
Gossiping around here and there,
Is this really called family?

Nevertheless the mistakes,
I respect them as they're old enough to act like one.
But I'm really disappointed.
Do they really called themselves my family?

They are the ones who pulled me down,
Acting like good human in front of me,
But a black sheep when I'm away.
They don't understand me.

To the fact that they loathed me,
I felt it. But I ignored,
Telling myself to be strong,
They can't understand me.

Why are they being so mean?
When in fact, they didn't know what I was going thru.
They didn't care and keep on blabbering things,
What am I? An interesting latest news?

I'm tired of everything.
Even on myself.
But I have now my goal.
And it kept me distracted, causing me not to overthink lately.
Yes. Thankfully, I have it.

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