We all try

The darkness

        I lived a shitty life, yeah most people say that but I mean it. My mon and dad forgets my birthdays, my brother is not a brother, I dont get much "love" or other shit that I need, I dont get stuff for school. Im just a 17 year old whos life suck.

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As I get ready for school I over hear my mom and dad fighting, again. "why dont they just spit" I sighed. When I was all ready I just stood there looking in  to my mirror for a couple of seconds. I was 6'1 wearing black boots,skinning jeans with a leather jacket with sliver buttons. and with my black hair with dark blue ends I looked good.

SAM! get your ass down here were going! my mom shouted up the stairs to my bedroom. My mom always drives me to school I really didnt know why? I live about 15 minuts away for my school.

"COMING" I shouted back.

I walked down my stairs to the living room, my dad sat there in his chair just watching some T.V. befores he goes to work.

"Dad can i have some money for my lunch?"

No he said back fast, dont have any

Bullshit I know he as some I though

"fine" I walk away for the room to my front door to leave.

"Are we going or not?" I said back at my mom

Yes! she walk right past me as if I wasnt there. I stood there it took me a minutes before I walk out of my door.

I got in the car and lead towards the dash to instatly turn on the radio and put on some good music. I found my favorite song

"this world will never be, what i expected and if i dont belong who would have guessed it? i will not leave alone. everything that i own, to make you feel like: its not too late its never to late. ever if i say: "it will be all right," still i hear you say you want to end your life... now again we try to just stay alive. mayb we'll turn it around, 'cause it not too late! its never to late!

right then away my mon shuts off the radio and says

this is shit, (yep thats mon for ya'll)

Mom! "thats three days grace never to late, i love that song"

so? she turn and looks at me

"whatever" I turned to look out my window.

 All I did on the way to school was daydream about the "what if ?" what if i was not born or if had boyfriend or even friends. All I got is my music, my eyes were now close all the colurs behind my eyes were gone. "thats odd?" I open my eyes to see nothing but darkness going on for ever.

"What the fuck" I started siting up to see myself back in front of my mirror in my bedroom. " why am I back at home?

I felt like I was suck in the exact spot, not moving doing nothing but looking in to the mirror that goes on forever. but in the coner of my eye there was a dark swadow moving like it was trying to hide from my site. I open my mouth but no words were coming out. I was stuck in the place of darkness, just infront of a mirror. I felt nothing no feeling came to mine just nothing.

The shadow was right behind me, the swadow started to show alittle more of itself each time I blink like a mouth and eyes but they were just white. I felt something on my shourder i took a look in the mirror but the swadow was gone I looked behind me its was there just staring at me like its looking right though me.

SCCCEECHHHH its white mouth and eyes were growing brighting

I covered my ears and closed my eyes so tightly I was going numb

"STOP" I screamed atill my chest felt tight.

It felt like the world stop around me. I open my eyes to see my school outside the car window and my mom looking worryed on the other side of me.

"Sorry dayscream" I took my beg from the back seat and ran out of my car and across the sheet, when I looked over my shouder my mom was already gone.

"gez thanks mom" I took a looked at myself and fixed myself alittle before I walk into my school.

"This is going to be some day today" while taking a long exhale.

and I walked in.