playboy |park jimin| ff.

2. He's a problem

Y/N POV

Let's say, I have a social phobia. It came to me a long time ago, since I was always bullied at school... I had always anxiety symptoms that haunted me. Getting in touch with people was very difficult for me, I'm afraid of their first thoughts, I'm afraid of being seen by someone in a very embarrassing or uncomfortable situation ... I never share emotions with anyone.
Mentally I'm also damaged. Panic attack disorders are very frequent. Many suicide attempts and nights without sleep.
I can say that I even don't have a family although I live with my mom...

A/N POV
FLASHBACK :

She was gathering her clothes in a suitcase quickly. As if there were no more time. As if she was running away from someone. There was anger on her face

Little y/n: Mommy what are you doing you're leaving me?
*you had tears running down your cheeks and holding her by the hand*

But quickly she took it from you and continued to do her packing.

Y/n: M-Mommy?? *crying*

Mum: Listen to me! *she got on her knees in front of Y/N* from today onwards I won't be here anymore ...*she caressed your cheek and cleaned the tears you had*

Mum: Don't cry Y/n ... You need to be strong.

Y/N: W-Why you are leaving me, mummy???

Mum: I'm really sorry darling... Be safe.

She kissed your forehead and got up to close the suitcase and dragged it with her to the exit.

Y/n: NOOO mummy don't leave me, mammy!!!
*you are crying even stronger*

She rushed so fast that you could reach her. That was the last time you saw her. But one day...

Y/N POV

I woke up and as usual, I did my daily routine and went to university.
I was going down the street, I was right next to the university listening to music in my headphones when someone from behind touched me by the shoulder. When I saw who it was I took off my headphones from my ears.

Joy: Hey yesterday you went away even giving us your number. I don't even know where you live.

Y/N: Oh sorry really, I was in a hurry yesterday...

Joy: Anyway, did you make it to the lesson yesterday?

She said and rested her hand behind my neck hugging it.
I felt a little uncomfortable because I wasn't used to this. But I left it and didn't say anything against it. However I have to get used to such actions to become much more open to others.

Y/N: Ahmm yas, thankfully...

Joy: Yeah! don't be that cold with me... Are you afraid of me? You seem like you are a little scared of people. Isn't it?

She looked at me while I looked away.
Why I'm getting anxious?? I started moving my fingers with agitation.

Joy: Yeah. Look at me...

She turned me around so that she could look in my eyes.

Joy: Don't be scared. Look, it really seems that you had some problems in the past. And I think you are not ready to tell me. Maybe because you don't have trust in me now, but I hope one day you will open to me.