1 year ago
TW: suicide, depression
I'm closed in a damn psychiatric hospital. They are saying that everything will be fine and will get better after this treatment... She's saying that too. She's looking at me like she's about to cry.
Lies.
All she said was a lie. Everything was a lie...
All my life was just a lie.
I never lived my life. They ruined all my happiness, my childhood...everything.
?: You will be fine here. Just trust me, this will help you. Then your life will be better. I promise...
She was looking staring in my eyes with her hand on my shoulders. While on her cheek run down a tear.
Life?...
What kind of life? It all started from you! Mother...
I don't believe you anymore, and will never believe you again.
I just looked at her without emotions my whole body was shaking, my view was getting more blurry and my head was aching. I watched how one of the therapist was drugging her out of the room.
Mom: I love you darling, i promise everything will be okay! I love you!
They closed the door and some doctors rushed towards me.
I looked at my hand full of cuts on my wrist.
Yes, I tried to commit suicide.
That was the only way, to finish this miserable life. My pain and just my existence...
My view kept getting darker, until I saw just darkness. And then , just SILENCE.
And I dreamed... about all my moments in my life. Moments I wish were beautiful dreams but mine were just nightmares.
"Nightmares" (flashbacks)
Guy: Who do you think you are? Just look at yourself! * he pointed at you with his finger while laughing it out* everything about you gross me out, you little slut *he pushes you on the ground*
•••
Mom: I'm sorry Y/n... I need to leave. Forgive me... *she let off your hand*
Y/n: No! Mom, please don't leave me here! Don't leave me and my sister!! *you started to run after her crying*
•••
Girl: I heard she's not even from a rich family. Then why she's studying here? Our school should not allow this kind of hopeless people inside here *the girls in your class were making fun of you*
•••
X: Oh guys look who is here? Our little Y/n...Should we play I with her? *one of the guys caressed your cheek*
*the other started to slowly approach you, blocking you in the middle*
X: Why not... *one of the guy smirked while taking your wrist*
Y/n: Please don't... I beg you... *you cried for mercy but they kept touching you*
Y/n: No! Please-
•••
Y/n: Dad, can you stop!? Stop drinking for god sake! You are spending all our money on this fucking alcohol- *you yelled throwing the empty bottles of alcohol on the table*
Dad: You little bit- Don't order me what to do!
*he aggressively threw the glass in his hand right past my head*
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